Triggering (SI/ED) - I'm still around and been diagnosed....
Ok so I know I aint been on in a long time but I have no internet connection at home and the internet cafe doent always let me online. basically I am writing this because im a mess - physically and emotionally.
I am being referred to St Andrews near york (anyone been? any stories to tell either here or in a pm?) and basically have been diagnosed as borderline personality disorder with bullimia to put with it alhtough she wouldnt officially diagnose my ed becuase she could sense i was distressed at the first diagnosis and i cant tak eit all in one go.
now i dont know what to do
I have borderling personality disorder which i know what it stems from but i cant talk about it - not yet anyway.
im cutting more severly to the point where i am concerned abou tmyself and am purging alot.
basically i am waiting for my referral for therapy which is anythin from 3 to 4 month (almost impossible to see them sooner)
in the mean time i need to know you gyys are there.
in any way please talk to me. i cant cope
sorry to rant but i am a mess like i said....sorry guys. will try to upprot a best i can
I'm sorry to hear things are so tough for you right now. Hold on because you've progressed in getting help and things can change now. Ok 3-4months really sucks but, in the mean time you have us (you always have us) and also your GP. While I was waiting for my referal to go through I went to see my gp when things got hard just for a chat really. And friends/family to help you aswell.
I think it's good that they're acknoledging your problems and that your getting help with it.
Try and look after yourself sweetie!
Take care and Stay Safe xxxx
Life can be beautiful if you let it.
Step back, breathe and take it in
Hey I know it's tough when you get a diagnosis, it's all scary and stuff, but hopefully it means they can help you better now that they know what's wrong. I hope you can get your therapy sooner, I had to wait ages for mine as well and it was hard. We're all here for you so I hope to see you around.
Sweetie things will get better from here, it's sad to hear your having such a hard time right now :(
Talk to me whenever, i'm more or less always here,
If only you'd ever speak to me
the way you once did
look at me the way you once did
pull to me the way you once did
but you don't
you don't feel anymore
you don't care anymore
it's all gone
it's all gone
it seemed nice when I went to visit. There was a nice atmosphere and the people seemed nice. They tailored the menus to the individual (amounts not the food). My friend wasn't that impressed but she's VERY hard to please and I don't think she'd be impressed by anywhere to be honest! are you doing inpatient or out or day? She was inpatient. There for borderline as well as ed.
aimee I've got the wrong number for you! it ends in 352. I'll have a word with my friend, and see if it's alright if you speak to her, because I don't know an awful lot about the place and she knows loads because she was there. I'll send you a pm with my mobile number on it...