I think I'v pushed myself to far with uni and pushing myself to try get good grades and having to get up at like half five to get there so always feeling sleep deprived.
I lost my support worker this week that was the only support I get.
and i have a hospital appointment next week were i find out if i need investigative surgery for them to take a biopsy, im trying to pretend to everyone im fine and okay and not worried but im in physical pain and stressed and i dont know.
Is there any way you can book yourself in some time off, B? Like, make sure that you have a week off over Christmas too sleep and relax and do things for you? And getting into the habit of maybe having one morning a week for you to sleep in? Or if mornings are booked up, then maybe one afternoon or evening a week where you make plans to treat yourself? Self care is really, really important and just as vital as your (quite clearly very impressive!) motivation for your academic success. There's only so long you can burn yourself out for until you don't have anything left to give. You deserve that self care.
Are there any plans to get you a new support worker? The loss of that relationship must be difficult, did you have a good relationship with them?
Good luck for your appointment. How do you feel about potentially having surgery? I know that being in pain can be so tough, it's physically and emotionally draining. Are you getting support from your GP and appropriate pain management?
Now I'll play your ghost as my ace, whenever I'm led astray.
But I am actually good, can't help it if we're tilted.
I'm in my right place, don't be a downer.
Went to hospital today. The lesions have spread by the sound of it. There increasing how often I have my injection and il go back in 8 weeks. If that doesnt work could mean surgery. If the inection does work she thinks I might be able to get it to take home to give myself.
Apparenty that wierd pain iv been feeling in my side has been where its spread to.
I'm sorry you're struggling so much. Not sure what to say in regard to your physical health, except that I really hope the injections start working now they've increased the dosage.
From what you've been saying, it sounds like the change in routine is affecting you. Could you maybe, when you're feeling a bit better, plan a routine for yourself for the Christmas break, just so things are more structured?
Do you want to talk about what's made you feel upset tonight(I mean is it just your physical health, or more like a combination of factors)?