Almost everybody relapses at some point, it's part of recovery. It doesn't mean you have failed by any means. Do you know whats triggered this latest episode? Is there anything you would like to talk about?
That depends... most of us have relapsed, but I'm guessing not many pull out strands of hair, which is odd since there's a medical term for hair pulling (Trichotillomania). I guess some people don't consider it a form of self harm, but rather another issue within itself.
Anyways, I can't relate to you on the hair part (mostly because I cut my hair so frequent, it's always short), but I can feel your pain on needing to do something and not being able to stop. IDK if you still feel the urge, but I highly recommend that you try to distract yourself from doing that. If it's the sensation you want to feel, do the rubber band trick where you wear a rubber band and you flick it on your wrist to feel some sort of "pain". I know it's still technically sh to some, but it would help you distract from your hair.
I have had so much trouble with my computer lately. Thank you, Olds, for your advice, but I'm absolutely sure I would find a way to pull WHILE I'm flicking the dang rubber band... I've known the medical term for it since I was a child. (I've always been a reader!) I understand it IS considered a form of self harm. Why would any girl want to do this to herself? I've been doing it since around age ten.
I don't have experience in hair pulling but your right it is a form of self-harm. I found a list of tips that could help that someone else with this condition has put together, here is a link. Have you ever received any support/counselling for the abuse you went through?
"Recovery is something that you have to work
on every single day and it's
something that doesn't
get a day off."