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Adult - **TW** I bled.
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TW SH, SUICIDE
This is just something I jotted down, it's not a finished piece.
How can I tell you the things in my head,
All the blood that poured from me,
Yes, I ****ing bled.
I bled for all the times that I couldn't make it right,
for all the times my anxiety,
triggered fight or flight.
I bled for the little girl who felt so lost and scared,
for the teenager who was strong enough to share.
I bled for all the times you told me to be still
and all of these years, its me I want to kill.
I need to quiet my mind for a moment or two
but the emotional pain, still seeps through.
I bled for ever touch, every second I was near,
every time I smelled your breathe and I couldn't move with fear.
I bled for all the times I took the drugs with drink,
giving me the time and space, so I could try to think.
In a blink of an eye,
It can all come crashing down,
Exhausted all your options and there's no one else around.
I feel this hurt and pain,
deep inside my chest,
living through a daily hell,
I try to do my best.
There's questions with out answers in my mind
I search deep inside my soul,
the answers I try to find.
Fear kicks in, feeling like I'll never cope
but from a life of trauma,
I can sometimes find a little hope
I bled for all the shame and the pain and the guilt,
but from the pain there's beauty and a life I've built.
No longer will I bleed,
You've had the last from me,
Finally I'm moving on,
I'm setting myself free.
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