Hi, feeling like I’m too old to be here, but here we are.

[Starbuck88]

Hello all,

I’m new to the forum. I’ve been self-harming since I was 16. I’m now 31. I feel like I might be too old to be on this forum...? Recently, my self-harming has felt really out of control. I made the decision that I want to stop, but since then I’m cutting almost daily whereas before it was just an occasional thing - maybe a couple of times a month. I’m studying for a PhD and I think the pressure and stress of never feeling good enough and worrying about failing has me punishing myself, and it’s just gotten totally out of control. I’m on a waiting list for CBT with health in mind, but I’ve been waiting for 13 months now so I’m not optimistic of getting help any time soon. I’m already on antidepressants. I feel like there’s no professional help available and it’s all down to me to turn my life around - but I’m failing miserably. I don’t know where else to turn or what else to try. I don’t want to be doing this to myself anymore. After spending half of my life hurting myself, I’m tired of it 😓 I would welcome any advice.

Thanks,
T x

[one_step_closer]

Hi, welcome to RYL. You're definitely not too old to be here, we have members of different ages (I am 33). I'm sorry you're having a hard time and aren't getting the professional support you need. I hope we can offer you some support here. Take care.