I don't think I have posted here before (no idea why, clearly I suck at recovery :P) well done everyone, you're all amazing :) Also Liv I love your Sig :)
This was a while ago but on NYE I went out with a friend for lunch (which is usually terrifying) and I had a great time and ate everything :D
Have you ever looked fear in the face and said "I just don't care"?
I made myself a blueberry smoothie and even included sustagen powder as I agreed with my counsellor
So she lights up a candle for hope to be found
Captive and blind by the darkness around
Each wave a promise, a new hope reborn
Sunrise consoles at the break of dawn
Ate those cookies because I was hungry and didn't listen to my mind telling me to fast, and kept them in so I did not purge them. Let me tell you, they we're delicious
“Sometimes, the best way to help someone is just to be near them”
I got my period after 18 months :))) i'm sooooo happy and feel like a women at last. I went out today and had two glasses of wine. And i just had evnen snack before bad. I'm fighting the feeling that it's too much because even if is, i have to gain weighg so it's ok
That's wonderful *hugs*. It's great that you were able to celebrate too- and you're right, you still need to maintain and gain and snacks are always fine
So she lights up a candle for hope to be found
Captive and blind by the darkness around
Each wave a promise, a new hope reborn
Sunrise consoles at the break of dawn
Well done everyone, some really great steps going on, you should all be very proud!
I did some baking today, and I managed to let myself have a slice. And then I managed to stop myself from purging afterward. And even though I feel ridiculously guilty and anxious, I am going to try and rationalise it, because it's not going to do anything bad, it's not going to make me gain a ridiculous amount of weight, and it's ok to eat it.
Made 3 enourmous steps for me:
1. I have a new landlady and she prepared fish and chips for me on Monday. I would never ever eat breaded fish before but I didn't want to offend her so I ate it and didn't feel guilt, shame, wish to take it out, nothing. It was just a stupid food and that's all (didn't eat the chips though, but still it's a huge step for me).
2. Also on Sunday I ate a sandwich that had butter on it which I'd never do befor and it was fine
3. Yeasterday I went to the gyp and felt so terrible thin compared to other normal girls. I look like a child and I'm supposed to be a feminin, a grown women with curves who looks healthy. I ate another whole meal after the gym, to recover my energy and even have a bit more calories than I used. It felt great, I wasn't anxious.....
Just hope I'll continue feeling like this when the results come and I actually gain a bit :)
That's wonderful- well done!!! So happy for you, and I know you can keep the changes up
So she lights up a candle for hope to be found
Captive and blind by the darkness around
Each wave a promise, a new hope reborn
Sunrise consoles at the break of dawn
That's excellent Gingerlilly- you managed to eat it all the same!
I bought fresh tuna and prepared a healthy japanese style meal from a new recipe for my partner and myself and have felt reasonably panic free since
So she lights up a candle for hope to be found
Captive and blind by the darkness around
Each wave a promise, a new hope reborn
Sunrise consoles at the break of dawn
I wore the kind of dress I've been too scared to wear for the last few months because it sort of shows my figure, because I don't need to be ashamed of my body :D
*hugs*. It's great that you were able to celebrate too- and you're right, you still need to maintain and gain and snacks are always fine
