At 6pmish today I asm travelling up to London due to the fact that I have an interview with the U.S. embassy to get into the States to Meet up with the AMAZING Felicia in January . I am anxious :/ .
I'm still not comfortable in my skin and the anasthetic's slowly wearing thin - Otep
Everyones lost but me! - Indiana Jones
It's okay , they know me here .
Kahlia1981 is my adopted little sister :)
''Courage doesn't always roar , sometimes courage is that little voice at the end of the day that says I'll try again tomorrow"
“Never lose faith in yourself,
and never lose hope;
remember, even when this world throws its worst and then turns its back,
there is still always hope.”
“Never lose faith in yourself,
and never lose hope;
remember, even when this world throws its worst and then turns its back,
there is still always hope.”
I am an emotional wreck right now. I can't stay in one emotion. So lost and confused.
~Matt~
Susanna Kaysen: I'm ambivalent. In fact that's my new favorite word.
Dr. Sonia Wick: Do you know what that means, ambivalence?
Susanna Kaysen: I don't care.
Dr. Sonia Wick: If it's your favorite word, I would've thought you would...
Susanna Kaysen: It *means* I don't care. That's what it means.
*puts brownies and choc chip cookies on the table*
*cries in the corner and rocks*
~Matt~
Susanna Kaysen: I'm ambivalent. In fact that's my new favorite word.
Dr. Sonia Wick: Do you know what that means, ambivalence?
Susanna Kaysen: I don't care.
Dr. Sonia Wick: If it's your favorite word, I would've thought you would...
Susanna Kaysen: It *means* I don't care. That's what it means.
*hugs everyone* checking in. still here, quietly occupying this dark little corner over here out of the way. not ready to leave yet, hope its ok if i stay around a bit longer. take care everyone and stay safe! talk to you soon!
MY RYL FAMILY: Blondiebear is my sister; nuttergirl is my little sister; makeachoice is my niece; prs100 is my niece; rachel487 is my sister;emovampryss is my wiccan sister; phroggie is my wiccan sister;crazychaoticmess and salutaredelamare are my angels. they always help to save me from myself.
It's been a while hasn't it, guys? I see some new faces ^^ Thats good - well not really but you know what I mean. :s
I'm in college now. I made some new friends who love me lots and lots! I'm out and proud and even told a couple people about my ...ex-problem. Turns out they've been through similar things.
I express myself through poetry now. I don't starve myself anymore. I sleep more than I used to but college sometimes keeps me awake (stupid coursework!). I'm doing a BTEC Level 3 extended diploma in art and design (photography) - and so far, I haven't missed a day!!!!
I found a new love in glowstringing and I'm going to start going ice-skating again! (It's something I'm good at ^^)
I hope you're all well! I'm sorry I haven't checked in but I thought it was about time I did. You guys saved me. You were my family when I didn't feel like I had one. So I will always be here - even if it's only to visit!
-Shad xxx
There's a hand;
Reaching into the darkness,
Pulling me back towards ethereal white.
Did we know this?
That we would be each others...
Never-ending light?
There's a hand;
Reaching into the darkness,
Pulling me back towards ethereal white.
Did we know this?
That we would be each others...
Never-ending light?
It's kind of shocked me that I've gone past my year. But I still think about it so I'm not free yet. Almost. But not yet.
-S xxx
There's a hand;
Reaching into the darkness,
Pulling me back towards ethereal white.
Did we know this?
That we would be each others...
Never-ending light?
I think the worst thing thats happened in the few months I've been gone other than my twaty ex-friends finally f***ing off (Kept death glaring me. I was like 'yeah, f*** you') was that I got a girlfriend and after the first three days of dating (she was living at my house (she got kicked out)) she ignored me for a month. I broke up with her and a couple weeks later I find out from my best friend (Rose <--- Gf's aunt (GF=17)) that she'd been cheating on me with a GUY! And that he'd purposed to her! I was so distraught that day. Honestly thought I was going to give in.
-S x
There's a hand;
Reaching into the darkness,
Pulling me back towards ethereal white.
Did we know this?
That we would be each others...
Never-ending light?
“The good things don’t always soften the bad, but vice-versa, the bad things don’t necessarily spoil the good things and make them unimportant.”
“Nobody important? Blimey, that’s amazing. Do you know, in nine hundred years of time and space I’ve never met anyone who wasn’t important before.”
“If it’s time to go, remember what you’re leaving. Remember the best. My friends have always been the best of me.”
Hey everyone :) how are you all? I havent been here or ages iv been on ryl just not in here. I'v just posted a picture in the compliments picture thread to for the first time.
“Never lose faith in yourself,
and never lose hope;
remember, even when this world throws its worst and then turns its back,
there is still always hope.”