I've mentioned this before some time ago, but the urges have resurfaced massively and I just felt it prudent to create this thread because I'm having trouble resisting. I have no idea why I have these urges, but basically I have strong urges to pull or preferably knock teeth out of my mouth and I'm slightly concerned that constant pressure I've been putting on one of them might be causing it to slightly crack.
I have researched this multiple times on the internet and have not found any other cases of this so I'm really at a loss as to a) what is behind these urges and b) how to stop them.
'Never forget what you are. The rest of the world will not. Wear it like armor, and it can never be used to hurt you.'
['There is only one thing we say to death. Not today'.']
'We are each our own devil, and we make this world our hell. Oscar Wilde
Its hard to dance with the devil on your back. Sydney Carter
I have no idea...it's just a massive, overwhelming urge. I'm pretty sure it's not ED related, it might be self harm, I feel like removing them would bring some kind of release, but whether that's just release from the urges I don't know 0.o
'Never forget what you are. The rest of the world will not. Wear it like armor, and it can never be used to hurt you.'
['There is only one thing we say to death. Not today'.']
'We are each our own devil, and we make this world our hell. Oscar Wilde
Its hard to dance with the devil on your back. Sydney Carter
Do you want to eat less or believe that your fat? Maybe the idea that you are fat causes you to want to knock your teeth out to stop yourself being able to eat anything and thus, to put on weight?
Just a suggestion and I might be wrong. I'll have a think about it. Try to look after yourself, Katy, please.
I always want to eat less and believe I'm fat but to be honest although that's the most logical explanation I really don't think that's what it is, especially as I had these urges when I didn't have an eating disorder.
'Never forget what you are. The rest of the world will not. Wear it like armor, and it can never be used to hurt you.'
['There is only one thing we say to death. Not today'.']
'We are each our own devil, and we make this world our hell. Oscar Wilde
Its hard to dance with the devil on your back. Sydney Carter
But before you realized self harm was a way of saying 'things are not right' I bet you wondered why the hell you were having urges to cut yourself? Maybe this is the same... you're having urges to hurt your teeth as a ways of saying 'things are not right/no one is listening' and getting urges to hurt yourself in a new way.
you dont have any other OCD symptoms at all do you?
just (although its not exactly the same) when my ocd is bad i get strong urges to do things similar to this. like cut the tendons in the back of my knee (even though thinking of it now makes me cringe!!!!). It just seems from your post it has the same urgey feelings that i do. theres other things but they creep me out!
So yeah just wondering it could be related to stuff like that at all?
^ I do have small urges in that respect, as in when I'm at a dinner table although I can usually resist now better than when I was younger if I don't straighten everything up it agitates me.
In the past I had an obsessive tidiness of my room thing but as I grew out of it I've always assumed it was just a need for control while everything else was going to pot. However recently I have been confused by at work my never tiring obsession to clean and for things to stay clean, (as in if I've mopped the floor and someone walks on it I don't just get annoyed I get really argh about it) which no one else seems to share and has (in a nice way) become a bit of a running joke. I also have to have my nail scissors in my hand in my room. If someone's there and I feel I can't have them in my hand I'm really distracted (the scissors are nothing whatsoever to do with self harm etc), it started when I got a bit overly concerned about dirt under my nails, although not massively so, then it got to wanting them in my hand all the time.
But generally I'd say I don't have OCD symptoms, I'm just a bit odd :)
Last edited by Buttons. : 12-05-2011 at 08:01 PM.
'Never forget what you are. The rest of the world will not. Wear it like armor, and it can never be used to hurt you.'
['There is only one thing we say to death. Not today'.']
'We are each our own devil, and we make this world our hell. Oscar Wilde
Its hard to dance with the devil on your back. Sydney Carter
Not the same thing - but for years every once and a while I get the urge to fall off balconies, or slam into things - not in an effort to self harm or kill myself but as a mere what I can only deduce to be a curiousity and control ridden act. These urges can be extremely strong that I have to avoid sitting on my balcony. I have come to understand these urges as odd and different and that they generally highlight that I need to slow down and be in the moment.
Similar to what you described above - racking your brain to see what you are currently carrying and how things are for you at the moment....I see it for myself as a mindfulness activity in some bizarre way. It makes me very conscious of myself and my behaviours and in turn my thoughts.
Might not be at all the case, but thought that I would share.
Be kind to yourself.
ashleigh
life isn't about finding yourself, it's about creating yourself.
Just sounds like another form of self harm. I've had very strange urges in the past to eat random things/bang my head against the wall/other weird stuff. Does distraction help? Is there anything going on right now that might have triggered it?