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Old 02-11-2019, 08:58 PM   #1421
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I'm scared it will change my thinking though and I don't want it changed there's only one way for me and that's ending my life

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Old 03-11-2019, 11:43 AM   #1422
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Right now that's all you can see but that doesn't mean that there truly are no other options, and you have to be alive to try those options. I hope you can find things that help in life.





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Old 03-11-2019, 05:50 PM   #1423
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I'm scared it will change my thinking though and I don't want it changed there's only one way for me and that's ending my life
How is your current way of thinking going? How does it feel to have thoughts of ending your life?



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Old 03-11-2019, 06:26 PM   #1424
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Thank you. It's scary and it's like I'm carrying a huge weight on my shoulders by not talking to people about it. But I think that's the way my life is meant to go. I don't want this life. I've had enough of life.

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Old 04-11-2019, 03:28 PM   #1425
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What are the specific things about life that you've had enough of? If those things could be changed or you could cope better with them do you think that life might be worthwhile? Death is a huge thing and suicide can go very wrong leaving you with even more things in life that you'd have to deal with. What makes you think this is the way your life is supposed to go? Could you be mistaken? I understand what strong suicidal feelings are like but they don't need to lead to a suicide attempt.





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Old 04-11-2019, 11:14 PM   #1426
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I just have. I don't want this life. I need to end it. I'm trying to convince the nurses I'll be safe on unescorted leave so that I can do it

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Old 05-11-2019, 11:15 AM   #1427
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What about working with them to build a different life for yourself?

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Old 05-11-2019, 12:07 PM   #1428
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I think that maybe you wouldn't be able to end your life though. What is it that you want to stop through death? Is it your emotional distress? I know how powerful emotions can be and how overwhelming things can feel. I'm sorry you feel like ending your life is the right option, but I don't think it's your only option and maybe you could explore that.





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Old 06-11-2019, 05:34 PM   #1429
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I just want to be at peace. Had my review today and they mentioned about a discharge meeting but I don't know what that means or when it will be

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Old 06-11-2019, 06:02 PM   #1430
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I don't think death is peace, you wouldn't be able to feel peace. Can you ask someone about what was meant at your review?





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Old 06-11-2019, 07:42 PM   #1431
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I don't know. I've just had enough.

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Old 06-11-2019, 08:44 PM   #1432
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My mum spoke to the review nurse about the discharge meeting. Apparently he said he doesn't know when I'll be discharged it could be a month or 2 or 3...the discharge meeting is just about getting things ready and in place

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Old 08-11-2019, 02:48 PM   #1433
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It's good for plans to be sorted well in advance so that when you're ready to go home there won't be a delay in discharging you. How have you been over the past couple of days?





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Old 10-11-2019, 08:38 PM   #1434
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Thank you. I've been struggling. Self isolating. Sleeping. Seeing the psychologist tomorrow and I'm dreading it.

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Old Yesterday, 11:24 AM   #1435
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I'm sorry you've been struggling, I hope you can talk through things with the psychologist today and it goes well. Please don't keep it all inside.





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Old Yesterday, 02:18 PM   #1436
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Thank you. Unfortunately didn't go as well as I hoped. I did keep a lot inside because of worrying about consequences. Now I have to wait a whole week til I next see her. Now I'm listening to depressing music.

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No words, but am sending love and thinking of you sweetie.

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I'm sorry to hear that, is there something that would make it easier to be honest next week? I think you need to be making the most of your sessions and you could get a lot from them.





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Old Yesterday, 08:49 PM   #1439
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Thank you both. I don't know maybe I should write things down. I know. It's just I'm so suicidal.

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Old Today, 12:01 PM   #1440
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I understand how painful and overwhelming things can be. No one is going to help you kill yourself but maybe if you find a way to communicate with the psychologist etc they can help you move through this safely and feel better. Writing things down is a good idea, it doesn't need to be properly structured or anything. How are you today?





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