I'm so confused
I need some help. I dont know how I feel. Recently ive just been confused i guess. I dont really know how to explain it...its like things that usually make me feel a certain way just dont anymore.
For example...whenever i think about things that usually fill me with anxiety, i just get nothing. Whenevr i think about my sexual abuse, something that in the past has made me feel so bad i have literally cried just thinking about it, i just dont feel anything. Or i used to feel ashamed of my self-injury, but now it seems like i just dont care.
I feel like i did a horrible job explaining things. And its not just those things, its other things too. I dont know...i just dont know how i feel. I feel like something is wrong. Im just coming off a 4 day string of terrible panic attacks and almost nonstop anxiety, so im wondering if that could have anything to do with it. I dont know...
To be honest, id rather be extremely depressed or anxious right now. Im almost to the point of trying to make myself feel that way, just because i guess i know how to handle that. This, i just dont know.
Im sorry, this probably wont make any sense to anyone, but any help would be greatly appreciated.
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