Social anhedonia

I've noticed lately that I don't seem to find joy in social interactions. I feel way more sad and just don't really care as much now. After being hurt and ghosted out abruptly and for unknown reasons or even no reason through the years, I can tell I am becoming less willing for people to get too close to me now. I actually expect people to leave me eventually, and yes it always does hurt, I am always expecting it and used to it at the same time as well. I still socialize with people, but I don't find the joy in it as much since in the back of my mind, I know they will drop me eventually especially if they find something else better or someone else they like better. I feel sad a lot and other times I just feel emotionally numb, like I just simply don't care anymore.

[Tan.D]

By saying that people are going to leave anyway, you're creating a mental block for yourself, where your every action and thought is directed towards ensuring that they leave.

Please stop thinking so low of yourself- there's nobody out there who's better or worse than you. Everybody's got their own differences, and you deserve to think better about yourself.

There will be people who will leave- but there will also be people who will stay. I can't help too much about this, because its a block I tend to create myself, and there are times I'm strangely detached from the friends around me and feel like I don't care anymore, but please know that its a lot easier to deal with this when you talk about it. There will be moments, but they will pass. Try talking about this with a friend of yours that you might be comfortable with?

I'm sorry, I hope somebody offers some more helpful advice!

[yoyogirl]

i totally understand where you come from, i suffer from depression as well and it so difficult at times, if you are struggle connect with peopel and find how finding other commnities to join. But i kinda realised that was better online for a whielit gave me the breathing spacw that i lack in social interaction.
how speaking to mental health services see if they can offer you some help and support or perhaps ask gp to refer you a psychologist to help you breakdown the wall you have for yourself.



i hope things work out for you