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Old 13-02-2019, 06:17 PM   #1
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I tryed..... I really try to be happy.....try feel good about myself..but i cant..... i feel so empty..... so sad..... so worthless.... I try to fake happy but ... all i can think about and feel is them ... I done trying ..... right now i just wanna die!!!


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Old 13-02-2019, 06:26 PM   #2
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Old 13-02-2019, 06:57 PM   #3
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I'm sorry you're having such a hard time. Do you have any support in your life? You aren't worthless and you deserve some help through the bad times. What does happy look like to you? You seem to connect to music to express yourself, are there songs that lift you up and motivate you?





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Don't try to calm the storm, calm yourself, the storm will pass.

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Old 13-02-2019, 07:03 PM   #4
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No. ....i don't
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Old 13-02-2019, 07:07 PM   #5
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What do you need right now to help you feel a bit better?





I put it down on paper and then the ghost does not ache so much.

Don't try to calm the storm, calm yourself, the storm will pass.

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Old 13-02-2019, 07:30 PM   #6
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I honestly dont think anything will..i feel very very hopeless.... Ive been feeling this way for months now and im just ready to go to hell right now......


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Old 13-02-2019, 08:00 PM   #7
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It's hard when you feel so hopeless, but that doesn't mean that it's true that there's no hope. What has helped you through these past months while you've been feeling this way? Does anyone know how much you're struggling?





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Don't try to calm the storm, calm yourself, the storm will pass.

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Old 13-02-2019, 08:04 PM   #8
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Nothing good....... Just self harm mostly.......

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Old 13-02-2019, 08:04 PM   #9
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What does self harm do for you? You say mostly self harm, so have there been other things that have helped?





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Don't try to calm the storm, calm yourself, the storm will pass.

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Old 13-02-2019, 08:08 PM   #10
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It helps me deal with my emotions
Music.....
No one knows everyone just thinks that im fine.......

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Old 13-02-2019, 08:10 PM   #11
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Have you looked at different methods of dealing with your emotions? There are lots of ways that can help with each specific emotion depending on what you're feeling. Do you trust anyone to be honest with them about how you are?





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Don't try to calm the storm, calm yourself, the storm will pass.

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Old 13-02-2019, 08:15 PM   #12
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I never thought of that before .....

No i really dont...... Everything i try to talk about the abuse my family doesn't believe me.. . .

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Old 13-02-2019, 08:18 PM   #13
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Maybe try and identify what you're feeling when you're triggered to self harm or are struggling and then looking into specific coping methods. What emotions do you generally feel? I'm sorry that your family aren't supportive. Are there other people you can talk to, maybe even a helpline?





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Old 13-02-2019, 08:23 PM   #14
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Disgusting, sadness angry selfhate hopelessness emptyness worthless loneness
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Old 13-02-2019, 08:29 PM   #15
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Some suggestions:

Sadness - funny videos, motivational quotes, treating yourself, talking to a friend, listing things you're grateful for, upbeat music, accepting your emotions and taking care of yourself.

Angry/self hate - write what makes you angry and rip it up.

Loneliness - reach out to someone. If there is no one in real life you can reach out to there are always online places like here. Things on here that are good when you feel lonely are chatting to the people in the 'I need a distraction thread' in the general board or replying to the threads in the fun and distractions board.

I'm sure you could come up with things that are more personal to you.





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Old 13-02-2019, 08:35 PM   #16
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Old 14-02-2019, 03:56 PM   #17
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I feel like total shit right now ..... Everyone's all ok and happy about Valentine's day and I just want this day to be over I just want my life to be over :

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Old 14-02-2019, 04:18 PM   #18
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Why should I be alive? What good will come out of it!? I'm a piece of living shit!!!!!


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Old 14-02-2019, 06:49 PM   #19
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Right now I’m at a Valentines party and a girl here called me a rouch and made me feel worse than before and I just don’t want to feel anything anymore!!!!!

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Old 14-02-2019, 07:11 PM   #20
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I'm sorry you're feeling so bad within yourself and that other people are leading you to feel even worse. Are there people at the party who you do get on with?





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