Originally Posted by stuckin2009
Hey there, my first question for you is can you clarify "imaginary suicidal"... Secondly, is it possible for you to get maybe a general labor job? Possibly in a warehouse or somewhere that you can be around people, but your job doesn't necessarily depend on your customer service skills? That would be my advice, to look into something like that. Then maybe your dad will see that you are trying and you won't be put out immediately. However, if you are feeling suicidal and concerned about your safety and mental health, maybe going inpatient in an institution would be a good thing for you.
I've been to an inpatient unit before. And they are the most help I've gotten rather than jail. However, in this area the County isn't set up for a permanent mental health place and program to go to.
I do like the idea of showing him that I care. I've tried explaining things to him and that didn't seem to do much. Although your idea of getting a job or go to school might work in showing him I'm actually trying. Right now it doesn't seem that way at all.
I'm trying to brainstorm a few places I could go and do things rather than just sit around the house... I've heard church - however I don't want to bring my "demons" so to say in the house of god. I can't think of anything else consistent and to be around people that'll actually give me a chance. I could try church as a desperate measure, I suppose.
Any input is much appreciated man, thanks.
/edit Oh and to answer your question imaginary suicidal is like picturing yourself doing it 'cause you want to die. But not actually going through with it.