Triggering (SI) - Wanting to after a while...
I've gone a pretty decent amount of time w/o cutting. I've been triggered, and wanted to, all the time, but I've just ignored it, I guess? For whatever reason I've been able to Not do it. Lately, it is REALLY bugging me. I just want to so badly and I don't know why. And I know I won't (or at least, would like to think I won't) but I have this stupid "I need to!" feeling and why won't it just go away, you know? Ugh.
I can't understand why I still want to or why remembering all the "bad" bits makes it seem even more appealing. And I can't understand what makes now feel different. I've been triggered before, it's no big deal, except... It's kind of big on my mind now. I don;t know. sorry.