I got my period after 18 months :))) i'm sooooo happy and feel like a women at last. I went out today and had two glasses of wine. And i just had evnen snack before bad. I'm fighting the feeling that it's too much because even if is, i have to gain weighg so it's ok
Well done everyone, some really great steps going on, you should all be very proud!
I did some baking today, and I managed to let myself have a slice. And then I managed to stop myself from purging afterward. And even though I feel ridiculously guilty and anxious, I am going to try and rationalise it, because it's not going to do anything bad, it's not going to make me gain a ridiculous amount of weight, and it's ok to eat it.
Made 3 enourmous steps for me:
1. I have a new landlady and she prepared fish and chips for me on Monday. I would never ever eat breaded fish before but I didn't want to offend her so I ate it and didn't feel guilt, shame, wish to take it out, nothing. It was just a stupid food and that's all (didn't eat the chips though, but still it's a huge step for me).
2. Also on Sunday I ate a sandwich that had butter on it which I'd never do befor and it was fine
3. Yeasterday I went to the gyp and felt so terrible thin compared to other normal girls. I look like a child and I'm supposed to be a feminin, a grown women with curves who looks healthy. I ate another whole meal after the gym, to recover my energy and even have a bit more calories than I used. It felt great, I wasn't anxious.....
Just hope I'll continue feeling like this when the results come and I actually gain a bit :)