*Positive Recovery Post* - I told my Mum properly :)
This is recovery orientated in the sense of being open about my problems, not hiding them away. :)
So, I met my parents for lunch today, and I told my Mum [my Dad was around, but not there for full conversation] that I have [am in recovery from] an eating disorder, that's like anorexia. She seemed totally unfazed, and was very understanding. In fact she seemed very conscious that I have indeed always had this problem periodically. [I could go into a long rant about how she in a sense ignored it, but I won't]. I'm so relieved that it's no longer 'secret'.
Well done Katie. That can't have been easy. I think maybe your mum noticed something was wrong but couldn't quite see what, but at the same time couldn't see it because no one can imagine anyone going through it. Also, it's amazing what kind of front we can put on, so you probably managed to hide it from her more than you think, which maybe reassured her thinking things where fine. She won't want to see her little girl unwell (my mum still calls me this even though I'm an adult) so give her the benefit of the doubt. She probably had no idea just how bad things were. She knows now and that's the main thing. At any age, we all need our mum's sometimes.x
“The good things don’t always soften the bad, but vice-versa, the bad things don’t necessarily spoil the good things and make them unimportant.”
“Nobody important? Blimey, that’s amazing. Do you know, in nine hundred years of time and space I’ve never met anyone who wasn’t important before.”
“If it’s time to go, remember what you’re leaving. Remember the best. My friends have always been the best of me.”
Unfortunately I'm not so sure she's able to be directly supportive in the way I really need. But she can in her way, so that is enough as that's what she can give. Don't forget my Mum's 76, so a totally different generation. It can make a difference in many respects, though I know she always quietly knows more than she lets on most of the time.
It sounds like your mum is already there for you in your life in many ways- I'm sure she will help as she can. How are you doing today Katie?
So she lights up a candle for hope to be found
Captive and blind by the darkness around
Each wave a promise, a new hope reborn
Sunrise consoles at the break of dawn
*Hugs* Katie- I hope your appointment gets you what you need right now. You can do it . Thinking of you
So she lights up a candle for hope to be found
Captive and blind by the darkness around
Each wave a promise, a new hope reborn
Sunrise consoles at the break of dawn
. Thinking of you