CMHT have abandoned me, cant cope - Page 12

chinahorse · 16-06-2020, 05:05 PM

They told me the county process. You are admitted to a ward. Not allowed to leave your room and swabbed. If it comes back negative you get moved to the adult ward if there is space. You are not allowed to leave your room on the first ward even if you are negative and there isnt a bed on adult ward. I dont see how being in a room away from anything useful will help.

Bellatrix · 16-06-2020, 11:23 PM

It could give you a safe place to be whilst something helpful is sorted out? If you could agree a plan for the admission/support it might feel more helpful

chinahorse · 16-06-2020, 11:35 PM

Crisis agreed there is no plan and are taking their lead from me and any admission would be to keep me physically safe only

I dont think an admission would be useful at all. Given how it is right now with Corona virus.im currently trying my beat to work with crisis and being honest. Ithi k that would stop if I agreed to IP.

Auror. · 17-06-2020, 03:12 AM

It sounds like you have valid reasons for not wanted to be admitted right now, and hopefully crisis can help support you in a way that works best for you. Are they being helpful or at least kind?

chinahorse · 17-06-2020, 01:13 PM

They are being good thanks.

I'm very anxious. Am waiting for call or not a call from the GP about a blood test I had done yesterday. I may or may not need medical treatment. And I'm not sure what I want. And the GP isnt definitely going to call. The results come back this afternoon so presumably they will only call if somethings wrong.

Pi.R^2 · 17-06-2020, 01:32 PM

Does your surgery have an online system at all? Mine does and it turns out I can see blood test results there which I didn't actually know, and I'm sure you can figure out what the results mean! Just thought it would be handy if you have that option as it's not fun not knowing if they just haven't called yet or if there's nothing wrong.

chinahorse · 17-06-2020, 01:41 PM

Nope I've just checked and you cant see results.

EyelinerAndCigarettes · 17-06-2020, 08:29 PM

Did you manage to get the results? If not and you're close by tomorrow you can go there and ask for a print out of your latest bloods.

Hope you're okay

chinahorse · 19-06-2020, 12:52 PM

So the bloods werent horrendous (to me).

A lot has happened including more blood letting and angry lillie at various people. Crisis and my psychiatrist came this morning. Psychiatrist came back to take bloods and brought me milk and oreos. District nurse is coming to look at the wound today. Blood results will probably be okay again so who knows.

If the bloods are ok crisis will come out both weekend days and they and cmht will talk more monday. I also got a supermarket delivery slot for monday evening as that was my part of the deal to start eating and taking better care of myself.

chinahorse · 20-06-2020, 04:30 PM

Can I have some kindness?

nonperson · 20-06-2020, 05:04 PM

Sending virtual bagfuls of kindness and chocolate your way, Lillie.

What's going on at the hospital?

chinahorse · 20-06-2020, 05:10 PM

New ward. Nurseswont tell me what's happening. No pain relief. No food. Food for everyone but me.

nonperson · 20-06-2020, 05:14 PM

Maybe it's just a temporary ward and they'll tell you more and give you food soon? Not knowing things is a horrible feeling, I'm sorry.

chinahorse · 20-06-2020, 05:38 PM

They are telling lies. Saying I OD on codeine today. Havent had any since yesterday morning. Most of the inside of my lower leg is an open wound and they sont understand how much it hurts now theres proper blood flow in my legs.

Got me food. Hadnt been handed over I was vegetarian.

I'm fine now. I want to go home. And have painkillers that work. This stupid iron infusion is pointless.

chinahorse · 20-06-2020, 05:41 PM

And with fibromyalgia if you let pain get to the point of unbearable it's hard to get it back down again. And they dont get it. Only care about the old ladies who smell like piss and shit

EyelinerAndCigarettes · 20-06-2020, 05:50 PM

Sending love. Low on words, sorry <3

chinahorse · 20-06-2020, 05:59 PM

I just want to go now. I came because I was ill. I have now had blood and iron and am not ill.

chinahorse · 20-06-2020, 06:01 PM

I just want to curl up and die. Psychiatrist said he has no idea how to help me yesterday.

EyelinerAndCigarettes · 20-06-2020, 06:10 PM

It is really hard being in the hospital especially when you're feeling dreadful. I think that was a really insensitive and unprofessional thing your psychiatrist said and I'm sorry - that must have been so hurtful. Have anyone in the hospital said whats happening next?

chinahorse · 20-06-2020, 06:18 PM

The plan before I moved wards was iron infusion and repeat bloods tomorrow and home if ok.