Graphic - I Don't Know What To Do Anymore...
I seriously think suicide might be the answer. *I labeled this as graphic just to be on the safe side*
Guys.. I'm feeling less than 100% to say the least.
I'm feeling pretty bad about everything right now, and suicide really seems like an option.
You see, I have this friend I can talk to. He says I can talk to him anyway, but I'm not quite sure he gets the severity. I tend to be a dramatic person, so when I talk to him about needing to act on my self-destructive urges, or how I feel suicidal, he almost brushes it off like I'm overexaggerating. It hurts more than anything in the world. He tells me I can talk to him whenever I need to, but I know he thinks I'm an attention seeker- why wouldn't he? With people's views on mental health these days...
I don't know what to do. I'm scared I'm going off the deep end.
I know this isn't okay, and I know I need to calm down, but I can't. I feel like doing so many hurtful things to my body right now, and I'm terrified. I'm really, honestly terrified.
I don't know what else to do, so I'm posting here.
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