Triggering (SI/Suicide) - depressed. *rantish*
so i have been feeling really depressed lately. today was pretty bad, and i havent felt this bad in such a long time. i am starting to think that everything i thought i got somewhat past is all coming back. i cut more, i am upset more. i just dont no. i really dont no why.....so yeterday my mother blamed my being depressed on my messy room. yeah i dont get the connection either. she was all like you wouldnt be so depressed all the time if you just cleaned your room. yeah i wish that was the problem. then maybe if i cleaned my room i could be all happy and joyous again. and thats the first time she ever said i was depressed. she has never actually said the words that define whats wrong with me in hopes that by not saying them its not true. again dont i wish....so yeah anyway i am upset yet again, there is not really any reason why. i feel like i am being dragged back into everything yet again......i really dont no if i can stop all over again.....
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