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StillBroken is my cool lil sis!!! - surprising mystery is my uber-cool monkey!!!zowie is my lil sis !!!!- LetDeathEmbraceUs is my Wolfie !!!
BrokenKisses is my DizzyCandyFloss !!! rachel487 is my lil sis !!! nuttergirl is my kool neice !!! CrazyKat is my book buddie !!!
NO MATTER HOW BAD YOU FEEL - ONE NICE PM TO SOMEONE NEW A DAY HELPS!!! TRY IT!!!
I heard the bell ring for lessons, but I couldn't be bothered to get up. My life had just fallen to pieces around me, why would a stupid thing like biology matter any more? It wasn't like I was ever going to make anything of myself. I was to stupid to actually earn grades, to ugly to hang with the popular girls, to fat to get a boyfriend. Never quite what people were looking for. Never really what they wanted.
As the rain started to fall, I clambered to my feet. No point in staying out and getting wet, I would only get yelled at when I got home. Slowly, I gathered my bag and retrieved the blade from where it had fallen. I ran home, locking myself in my room. I plugged my iPod into the speaker dock on my bedside table, switching the music on as loud as it would go. I opened the windows as far as I could, enjoying the cold air and the scent of rain as the breeze swirled around my room. I made the bed, quickly tidied away my school things and got changed. Nothing fancy, just jeans and a black t-shirt. I wasn't planning on going anywhere.
I had about an hour before my mother got home from work. Just enough time. Making my way down to the kitchen, I rummaged through the cupboards, collecting together any food that wouldn't be missed. I found chocolate, crisps, biscuits and loads of other junk food. I cooked enough spaghetti for the whole family, leaving half of it in the fridge and keeping the rest for myself. When I had as much as I could carry, I trudged back upstairs.
Laying the food on my desk, I looked at it in shame. I had already screwed up once today, did I really want to do it again?? Then I remembered that no-one gave a damn any more, and in that moment I decided that I didn't really care anyway. What did it matter??
It took me a little over half an hour to consume the meal I had brought up. After, I felt stuffed, a fat, greedy pig. I walked over to my mirror, and standing sideways, analysed the bulge of my stomach over the top of my jeans. I was already twice the size of some of my classmates, and I felt terrible.
Suddenly, I felt my stomach turn. Rushing to the en-suite bathroom, I fell to my knees before the toilet. Tears streaming from my eyes, I quickly brought up all the food I had eaten, retching over and over. My muscles ached, my nose burned where the vomit had passed through as I choked. For several minutes, I stayed slumped against the bowl, unable to move as I caught my breath. Eventually, I managed to crawl to the sink, where I poured a glass of water, before heading back out into my room, and climbing into bed, where I cried myself to sleep, fingers running back and forth across my cuts and scars, a potentially fatal safety blanket.
Change has a considerable psychological impact on the human mind.
To the fearful it is threatening because it means that things may get worse.
To the confident it is inspiring because the challenge exists to make things better.
To the hopeful it is encouraging because things may get better.
StillBroken is my cool lil sis!!! - surprising mystery is my uber-cool monkey!!!zowie is my lil sis !!!!- LetDeathEmbraceUs is my Wolfie !!!
BrokenKisses is my DizzyCandyFloss !!! rachel487 is my lil sis !!! nuttergirl is my kool neice !!! CrazyKat is my book buddie !!!
NO MATTER HOW BAD YOU FEEL - ONE NICE PM TO SOMEONE NEW A DAY HELPS!!! TRY IT!!!
"Be nice. Think happy thoughts. Champion silver linings. Love all things (not just cute things like babies and kittens) & when you do love - love like they do in power ballads (you know like on a cliff with the wind in your hair and your eyes shut, knowing you'll never know love like this). Watch out for dog poo. Smile at people - even grumpy ones. Remember anything is possible & whatever you do always try to look on the bright side."
