As I leant forwards to pick up my coat to remove my dream diary, my sleeve moved up revealing a deep wound on my arm; Leah was looking down and I hurriedly pulled my sleeve down and handed her the dream diary. My breathing was rapid and my heart was racing but I tried to control my fear.
‘What’s wrong?’ Leah questioned, I’d obviously failed and could do little but try and slow my pulse and breathing before I passed out from lack of oxygen. I could feel my eyes closing slowly, until Leah took hold of my hand and turned my face to hers.
‘Look at me El, look at me. You are okay I want you to stay awake okay? I know it is hard. Breathe with me, in…and out, and in…and out. Good you’re doing fine, that’s it do you feel better now?’
‘Yes,’ I whispered to her.
"Be nice. Think happy thoughts. Champion silver linings. Love all things (not just cute things like babies and kittens) & when you do love - love like they do in power ballads (you know like on a cliff with the wind in your hair and your eyes shut, knowing you'll never know love like this). Watch out for dog poo. Smile at people - even grumpy ones. Remember anything is possible & whatever you do always try to look on the bright side."
Uhm thank you lol=]
‘Yes,’ I whispered to her. ‘Thank you.’
I forced myself to sit up straight and reached for Leah’s arm as the room swum before my eyes,
‘You’re okay, I’ve got you.’ Blinking I bought the room into focus and leant back on the sofa, sighing I finally relaxed. A slight smile crossed Leah’s lips as she realised I was slowly relaxing.
‘Can you explain what caused you to panic like that?’ I paused and as Leah was about to speak I slowly pulled up my sleeve. If Leah was shocked by what she saw she didn’t show it, she held up hand and looked at me from where she was kneeling on the floor and she spoke three words:
‘Want to talk?’
Only a little bit but i'm going to try and write some more now and do my revision and CW later lol
LOL! we only finished early cause the school had a power cut last night and we have know lights or heating lol so we were sat in the Exam hall FREEEEEZING! any who here's what i've written today for you..
Who knew three words could have such an affect on someone; I smiled as tears ran down my face, I had no idea how I felt I was elated but terrified beyond belief and I couldn’t wait to get home and just collapse on the sofa. I promised Leah I would talk to her in our next session I just needed time to sort it through in my head, and she was okay with that.
When I left Leah’s building I headed down the road towards the bus stop, standing there was a woman, with long brown hair hanging loose, with dark brown eyes and a friendly smile.
‘Hello. How are you?’ She asked,
‘Hi, I’m okay thanks. And you?’ I responded as politely as I could.
‘I’m okay. Where you off to then?’
‘Just heading home. Yourself?’
‘Going to see my son, he’s in prison.’ I almost asked why but decided against it as she told me anyway. ‘Apparently some stuck up bitch accused him of rape. My poor Antonio.’ As soon as she said his name I jumped up from the bus shelter seat. ‘Are you okay m’dear?’
‘I – I’m fine’ I stuttered, ‘I just remembered I forget my…erm…umbrella. Looks like rain.’ And with that I crossed the road and headed back towards Leah’s building, so many thoughts swarmed around my head I could hardly see where I was going for tears. I finally made it through the doors to see Tori sitting in her usual place and Linda, the receptionist, was not at her desk.
‘Oh my God! Are you okay?!’ Tori leapt from her chair and ran over to me; she supported me and helped me to a chair. ‘Leah! Something’s wrong with Chantelle!’ Leah’s head appeared round the door as she opened it quickly. Next thing she was at my side with Tori, all I could see were their faces swarming in and out of focus my tears never stopped.
‘I’m sorry,’ I managed to splutter between sobs. ‘I didn’t know where else to go.’
‘Hey, don’t worry we’ll help you through this, won’t we Leah?’ Tori sounded scared and probably looked it too. Leah said something but I didn’t hear it because I started coughing; a felt someone pat me on the back and my coughing ceased.
‘I saw his mother, she thinks I’m a stuck up bitch, he obviously hasn’t told her anything that he did.’ I sat up straight as I said it, I mean I’m not the world’s most confident but I know what I am and what I’m not, and I am not a stuck up bitch. Wiping my face I looked at both Leah and Tori and apologised for getting in such a state.
thanx Guys i haven't written any more today but i'm planning on writing some tommorrow because i'm not doing anything except revision. If i do write any i'll post it here for you
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