Hi everyone!
I was active here for few years back to 2005-2007. Then I got mentally so broken I couldn'n keep going. I couldn't bare being in a place where self-harming was everyday life. I felt that pushed me to keep going, I didn't have the strenght being "different" and finding another way to cope.
At some point I got back here but couldn't do more than few posts. Then I found a forum in my native language, totally different from this 'cause it was all about gazehounds. That lead me back to forum life which was so important part of me before at here.
I don't even remember how long it's been since my last cut. It was important for me not to count the days, weeks and finally months. But that part of me hasn't gone anywhere. I still found myself thinking self-harming, mostly cutting. I can sit still for like half an hour thinking how I want it so bad. For somehow I just can't do it. I can't crab the knife and release myself.
Well, the reason that made me come back to yours is support. I need a place where I can be 101% myself without the fear it will make me suffer later IRL. I need a place without evil spirits.
I couldn't figure any better place for that than this.
