Shrink i think that voice telling you no is a good wy to hang on, i tend to get that, ok its not the best way to cope but i always think i dont want to cause trouble if i od or cut.
still not feelng great tbh body image issues and wotnot, want to restrict so much but trying to ignore that voice because i know kate will not approve
in other random news apparently im looking after a couple dogs next week so need to make sure the house and garden are dog friendly (Kias so well behaved that its not an issue) because ones a young rodent dog which might escape through small holes in the fence.
not sure how i feel about it, might be nice but im not a fan of the little dogs, just hope they are well behaved im so used to the wolf being perfect that im not sure i remember what a real dog does
Oh ferret, I so know where you are coming from about not remembering what a real dog is like. I was so used to having Scooby who is sort of trained - well he's house trained anyway (apart from that he's naughty but hey!), that when I got Tilly it was a bit of a shock!
little dogs are not cute mari, they have little man syndrome.
Thing is Tig Kia is so close to perfect behaviour that sometimes even we forget shes still just a dog, for example she stole some treats from the box they were in on the kitcehn floor but because mum had put another box on top she thought they were safe, and usually they would be.
her biggest issue is other dogs, but some of that is down to her breed being v dominant, she'd love to ave a chew on the little dog lol so she won't be coming up next week to see me which she will be gutted about
Ferret I am sorry your feeling so low. It must be hard to keep the diary and eat 6 times a day but your doing really well despite how you may be feeling. As lotti said behaviours like the binging that have been around a long time can take time to break but bit by bit you will get there. Just take it one step at a time. It's good that your mum is looking out for you too
I hope you have a nice visit with your cousin Lotti
Sarah sorry your struggling but it is good that your resisting. I hope it goes okay at the hospital for you. Is there anything that is making things particularly hard for you at the moment?
Shrink it sounds like a difficult place to be in. Try and not OD hun as it will only make things worse. Would doing some journaling to get the thoughts out of your head help at all?
"Recovery is something that you have to work
on every single day and it's
something that doesn't
get a day off."
New Bed and I slept until 25 minte past midday , oops!
I'm tired and a bit anxious so I'm sorry for lack of individuals , I am struggling to focus *Hugs Threadlings* *Puts out mango slices*
I'm still not comfortable in my skin and the anasthetic's slowly wearing thin - Otep
Everyones lost but me! - Indiana Jones
It's okay , they know me here .
Kahlia1981 is my adopted little sister :)
''Courage doesn't always roar , sometimes courage is that little voice at the end of the day that says I'll try again tomorrow"
hey up chaps, sorry been a busy bee today, motivation returned (in part that the dogs are coming) so ive given the ouse a tiday and blitz so there should be less stuff for the dogs.
thanks crazy cat, it was a little bit better last night i didnt binge altough i did eat although i must fill in my diary
hope your ok mark,
how is everyone else
and mari...shes gorgeous :P when its her time to go i think we will all be very devistated
How is it , that I feel like an Adult at 31 for the first time in my life , no worker or parent to check up on me and I feel Low and Good at the same time , is this understandable?
I'm still not comfortable in my skin and the anasthetic's slowly wearing thin - Otep
Everyones lost but me! - Indiana Jones
It's okay , they know me here .
Kahlia1981 is my adopted little sister :)
''Courage doesn't always roar , sometimes courage is that little voice at the end of the day that says I'll try again tomorrow"
Hey mark when you live away on your own its amazing yet scary at the same time, because you do everything for yourself. Just be carful when you feel low though because being alone can make things worse as well.
"Its not how long a star shines, what is remembered is the brightness of the light"
