I'm so sorry for making a thread when I haven't replied to anyone for God knows how long. I've been lurking and used to post on here a lot in the past (under different usernames) but I thought I've been doing OK.
Long story short - I was psychologically bullied past endurance when I started secondary school (lets call it School 1) for just over three years. Eventually moved schools to School 2 and managed to start the long road to recovery, which took ten years of self harm, anxiety, depression, Borderline Personality Disorder, hospital, counselling, Crisis Team, etc. I thought I was doing pretty well - I can talk to people now, I have a good relationship, I'm not the person I was when I was at my lowest.
Today my partner texted me from work to say he had met one of my friends from School 2 - the one that helped me start recovery. He told me who it was - one of the group of people there that made me feel exactly like I was back in School 1, the one who made me feel an inch tall just by being in the same room, the one who absolutely terrified me. I've been shaking for the past two hours, was absolutely convinced my partner was going to be bring him home to say hello (he doesn't have a clue who this guy was to me at school). I feel absolutely devastated, close to tears, close to SH. It's just come so out the blue and it's so unexpected. My partner didn't bring him home (why the hell would he?!), but I'm still just.....an absolute wreck. I don't know how to cope.
I'm so sorry for such a long post
