Just the bitch of living
As someone you can't stand
****
It's the bitch of living
With nothing going on
Just the bitch of living
Asking: what went wrong?
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It's like just kiss some ass, man
Then you can screw 'em all
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It's the bitch of living
And living in your head
It's the bitch Of living
And sensing God is dead
It's the bitch of living
(You watch me-
Just watch me-)
And trying to get ahead
(I'm calling and one day)
It's the bitch of living
Just getting out of bed
(All will know)
It's the bitch of living
Let us go then you and I, when the evening is spread out against the sky, like a patient etherized upon a table
- T.S. Elliot
I heard that you're settled down
That you found a girl and you're married now.
I heard that your dreams came true. Guess she gave you things I didn't give to you.
Old friend, why are you so shy?
Ain't like you to hold back or hide from the light.
I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited
But I couldn't stay away, I couldn't fight it.
I had hoped you'd see my face and that you'd be reminded That for me it isn't over
Well, when you go
Don't ever think I'll make you try to stay
And maybe when you get back
I'll be off to find another way
And after all this time that you still owe
You're still the good-for-nothing I don't know
So take your gloves and get out
Better get out
While you can
When you go
Would you even turn to say
"I don't love you
Like I did
Yesterday"
Sometimes I cry so hard from pleading
So sick and tired of all the needless beating But baby when they knock you
Down and out
It's where you oughta stay
And after all the blood that you still owe
Another dollar's just another blow So fix your eyes and get up
Better get up While you can
Whoa, whooa
When you go
Would you even turn to say
"I don't love you
Like I did
Yesterday"
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I take these pills to make me thin
I dye my hair, and color my skin
I tried everything, to make them see me
But all they see, is someone that's not me
Even when I'm walking on barb wire
Even when I sat myself on fire
Why do I always feel invisible, invisible
Everyday I try to lock my past
Even though inside I'm such a mess
Why do I always feel invisible, invisible
Here inside, my quiet heart
You cannot hear, my cries for help
I tried everything, to make them see me
But every one, sees what I can't be
Even when I'm walking on barb wire
Even when I sat myself on fire
Why do I always feel invisible, invisible
Everyday I try to lock my past
Even though inside I'm such a mess
Why do I always feel invisible, invisible
Sometimes when I'm alone
I pretend that I'm a queen
It's almost believable
Even when I'm walking on barb wire
Even when I sat myself on fire
Why do I always feel invisible, invisible
Everyday I try to lock my past
Even though inside I'm such a mess
Why do I always feel invisible, invisible
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Have you ever looked fear in the face and said "I just don't care"?
I want my innocence back
And if you can't pacify me
I will break your bones
You think I'm bluffing, just try me (just try me)
I will never forget the words you used to ensnare me
Till my dying day
You'll suffer for this, I swear (I swear)
I want my innocence back
I want my innocence backAnd I demand
You put my heart back in my hand
And wipe it clean
From the mess you made of me
And I require
You make me free from this desire
And when you leave, I'd better be the innocent
I used to be
I want my innocence back!
(I want my innocence back)
Let us go then you and I, when the evening is spread out against the sky, like a patient etherized upon a table
- T.S. Elliot
I will hang my life in the space between the noose and your neck
I won't let you die just yet
I will love you even when you won't let me
And you will kill me by doing nothing
But I know it's not you, my dear
I know it's not you
I know it's not you, my dear
It's the nothing that kills
I can't save you
Control is something out of mine
No, I can't save you
Control is something out of my control
I can't save you but I will love you
No, I can't save you but I will love you
Mister me
Ego queen
Struts around me
Painted jeans All I wanted was
Someone to rely on
I see you
You don't see me
Nothing burns like your empathy
All I wanted was
Someone safe to lean on
I will stay
But you should leave
You go find what you're looking for
‘Cause I've found me
You stand tall
So I stand down
Blood stays wet beneath
This cold crown
All I wanted was
Someone blind
To guide me
Maybe to hide in
I will stay
But you should leave
You go find what you're looking for
‘Cause I've found me
I will stay
But you should leave
You go find what you're looking for
‘Cause I've found me
Come back to me
All I wanted was you
I will stay
But you should leave
You go find what you're looking for
‘Cause I've found me
I will stay
But you should leave
You go find what you're looking for ‘Cause I've found me
"only music clarifies, reconciles, and consoles.
But it is not a straw just barely clutched at.
It is a faithful friend, protector, and comforter,
and for its sake alone, life in this world is worth living.
Who knows, perhaps in heaven there will be no music.
So let us live on the earth while we still have life" Pyotr Ilyich Tchaikovsky
I have to block out thoughts of you, so I don't lose my head
They crawl in like a cockroach leaving babies in my bed
Dropping little reels of tape to remind me that I'm alone
Playing movies in my head that make a porno feel like home
There's a burning in my pride, a nervous bleeding in my brain
An ounce of peace is all I want for you, will you never call again?
And will you never say that you love me, just to put it in my face
And will you never try to reach me, it is I that wanted space
Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn't do for you
Hate me in ways, yeah ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see what's good for you
I'm sober now for three whole months, it's one accomplishment that you helped me with
The one thing that always tore us apart is the one thing that I won't touch again
In my sick way I want to thank you for holding my head up late at night
While I was busy waging wars on myself, you were trying to stop the fight
You never doubted my warped opinions on things like suicidal hate
You made me compliment myself when it was way too hard to take
So I'll drive so ****ing far away that I'll never cross your mind
And do whatever it takes in your heart to leave me behind
Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn't do for you
Hate me in ways, yeah ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see what's good for you
And with a sad heart I say bye to you and wave
Kicking shadows on the street for every mistake that I have made
And like a baby boy I never was a man
Until I saw your blue eyes cry and I held your face in my hand
And then I fell down yelling "make it go away"
Just make her smile come back and shine just like it used to be
And then she whispered how can you do this to me?
Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn't do for you
Hate me in ways, yeah ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see what's good for you
For you
For you
For you
When I'm gone, are you gonna miss me? Are you even listening? Do you even care about anything at all?
Noone can see your tears when you walk in the rain
Join Date: Oct 2010
Location: The most boring place on earth?
I am currently:
"I Hate Myself For Losing You"
I woke up today
Woke up wide awake
In an empty bed
Staring at an empty room
I have myself to blame
For the state I'm in today
And now dying
Doesn't seem so cruel
And oh, I don't know what to say
And I don't know anyway
Anymore
I hate myself for losing you
I'm seeing it all so clear
I hate myself for losing you
What do you do when you look in the mirror
And staring at you is why he's not here?
You got what you deserved
Hope you're happy now
'Cause everytime I think of her with you
It's killing me
Inside, and
Now I dread each day
Knowing that I can't be saved
From the loneliness
Of living without you
And, oh
I don't know what to do
Not sure that I'll pull through
I wish you knew
I hate myself for losing you
I'm seeing it all so clear
I hate myself for losing you
What do you do when you look in the mirror
And staring at you is why he's not here?
I hate myself for losing you
And oh, I don't know what to do
Not sure that I'll pull through
I wish you knew
And oh, I don't know what to say
And I don't know anyway
Anymore
No, no
I hate myself for losing you
(I'm seeing it all so clear)
I'm seeing it all so clear
I hate myself for losing you
What do you do when you look in the mirror
And staring at you is why he's not here?
What do you say when everything you said
Is the reason why he left you in the end?
How do you cry when every tear you shed
Won't ever bring him back again?
I hate myself for loving you
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ "Haunted"
You and I walk a fragile line
I have known it all this time
but I never thought I'd live to see it break
It's getting dark and it's all too quiet
And I can't trust anything now
And it's coming over you like it's all a big mistake
Oh, I'm holding my breath
Won't lose you again
something's made your eyes go cold
Come on, come on, don't leave me like this
I thought I had you figured out
Something's gone terribly wrong
You're all I wanted
Come on, come on, don't leave me like this
I thought I had you figured out
Can't breathe whenever you're gone
Can't turn back now, I'm haunted
Stood there and watched you walk away
From everything we had
But I still mean every word I said to you
He would try to take away my pain
And he just might make me smile
But the whole time I'm wishing he was you instead
Oh, I'm holding my breath
Won't see you again
something keeps me holding on to nothing
Come on, come on, don't leave me like this
I thought I had you figured out
Something's gone terribly wrong
You're all I wanted
Come on, come on, don't leave me like this
I thought I had you figured out
Can't breathe whenever you're gone
Can't turn back now, I'm haunted
I know, I know, I just know
You're not gone. You can't be gone. No.
Come on, come on, don't leave me like this
I thought I had you figured out
Something's gone terribly wrong
Won't finish what you started
Come on, come on, don't leave me like this
I thought I had you figured out
Can't breathe whenever you're gone
Can't go back, I'm haunted
Oh
You and I walk a fragile line
I have known it all this time
Never ever thought I'd see it break.
Never thought I'd see it...
The beer spills in a disgusting puddle and the glass becomes nothing but fragments of a rainbow.
Now I'm standing on the rooftop ready to fall
I think I'm at the edge but I could be wrong
"God take me, because I hate me" -Underoath
We are male and female. We are artists, athletes, and students. We have depression, PTSD, eating disorders, bipolar disorder, or maybe no diagnosis at all. Some of us were abused, some not. We come from all walks of life and can be any age. We are every race or religion that you can think of. Our common link is this: We are in pain. We self-injure. And we are not freaks.
Look - you think you're smarter than me
Well, everyone knows
You will never be smarter than me
That's how it goes
I gained forty pounds because of you
Was there an "S" on my chest?
Well I confess you were too much stress
I'd have a heart attack at best
So now I breathe it out, I breathe it out
and I spit it on the crowd
As they lift me up, they lift me up
They lift me up when I'm feeling down
What am I spitting out, spitting out,
Something we never talk about?
It's called my... mind
I don't wanna hear you say-say-say-say-say-say-say-say it
I don't wanna hear you say-say-say-say-say-say it
I don't wanna hear you say-say-say-say-say-say-say-say it
Now you're messing with my... pride
Well, I'm sick of standing in your line
So now you'll have to take it Take this to heart
I will never let you **** me over
Stop talking down to me
Your war is old, your game is over
So here's my coldest shoulder
I don't wanna hear you say-say-say-say-say-say-say-say it
I don't wanna hear you say-say-say-say-say-say it
I don't wanna hear you say-say-say-say-say-say-say-say it
Now you're messing with my... pride
My pride...
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All my life, I've been treading paper in the space between the words.
And there implied is that I'm but another body for the birds, carrion, absurd and accidental atoms -
Beating air, carrying on; unwitting orphan of an unyielding despair.
But linger on, just for a moment, until we can ascertain if something's wrong with me -
Or the assumptions of these self-indicted brains.
Because I contend that all of this is more than just a meaningless charade,
That each and every moment is a bottle with a message hid away.
If anything means anything,
There must be something meant for us to be, a song that we were made to sing.
There must be so much more than we can see.
But all our lives, we've been treading paper in the space between the words.
And there implied's the thought that we are barely more than bodies for the birds, carrion.
They say that we're just accidental atoms beating air, carrying on and on,
Unwitting orphans of an unyielding despair. But our hearts tell a different story; our hands feel a different pulse.
Something fathomless, deeper than our pride can dive; numinous, higher than -
Our hearts can rise, transcendent, further than our thoughts can reach; imminent, closer than the air we breathe.
When I'm gone, are you gonna miss me? Are you even listening? Do you even care about anything at all?
I keep dreaming
You'll be with me
And you'll never go,
Stop breathing
If I don't see you
Anymore...
Cause with you
I'd withstand
All of Hell to hold your hand,
I'd give it all
I'd give for us
Give anything
But I won't give up...
And I miss you,
Been far away
For far too long...
But you know,
You know,
You know,
That I wanted
I wanted you to stay,
Cause I needed
I need to hear you say,
That I love you,
And I have loved you
All along...
Hold onto me,
Never let me go...
Oh, God, you're leaving in January, and I miss you already. I can only think of about 4 occasions where I'll see you in between now and then and that rips me to shreds.
But don't speak, don't say nothing
In case we ever do meet again
Something's wrong with you
Well I hope we never do meet again
You always sharpen your teeth 'cause you're like that
And you're like that every time you pull heart back
And her compact's carving deeper in your lap
I would call but I forget where the phone is at
Guess I'll talk to you when I get back
Yeah when I get back I will talk
But don't speak, don't say nothing
In case we ever should meet again
There are some things wrong with you
I hope we never do meet again
Something's wrong with you
And I hope we never do meet again
When I'm gone, are you gonna miss me? Are you even listening? Do you even care about anything at all?
Noone can see your tears when you walk in the rain
Join Date: Oct 2010
Location: The most boring place on earth?
I am currently:
"Remember When"
Remember when I cried to you a thousand times
I told you everything
You know my feelings
It never crossed my mind
That there would be a time
For us to say goodbye
What a big surprise
But I'm not lost
I'm not gone
I haven't forgot
[Chorus:]
These feelings I can't shake no more
These feelings are running out the door
I can feel it falling down
And I'm not coming back around
These feelings I can't take no more
This emptiness in the bottom drawer
It's getting harder to pretend
And I'm not coming back around again
Remember when...
I remember when it was together till the end
Now I'm alone again
Where do I begin?
I cried a little bit
You died a little bit
Please say there's no regrets
And say you won't forget
But I'm not lost
I'm not gone
I haven't forgot
[Chorus:]
These feelings I can't shake no more
These feelings are running out the door
I can feel it falling down
And I'm not coming back around
These feelings I can't take no more
This emptiness in the bottom drawer
It's getting harder to pretend
And I'm not coming back around again
Remember when...
That was then
Now it's the end
I'm not coming back
I can't pretend
Remember When
[Chorus:]
These feelings I can't shake no more
These feelings are running out the door
I can feel it falling down
And I'm not coming back around
These feelings I can't take no more
This emptiness in the bottom drawer
It's getting harder to pretend
And I'm not coming back around again..
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"Be My Escape"
I’ve given up on giving up slowly, I’m blending in so
You won’t even know me apart from this whole world that shares my fate
This one last bullet you mention is my one last shot at redemption
because I know to live you must give your life away
And I’ve been housing all this doubt and insecurity and
I’ve been locked inside that house all the while You hold the key
And I’ve been dying to get out and that might be the death of me
And even though, there’s no way in knowing where to go, promise I’m going because
I gotta get outta here
I’m stuck inside this rut that I fell into by mistake
I gotta get outta here
And I’m begging You, I’m begging You, I’m begging You to be my escape.
I’m giving up on doing this alone now
Cause I’ve failed and I’m ready to be shown how
He’s told me the way and I’m trying to get there
And this life sentence that I’m serving
I admit that I’m every bit deserving
But the beauty of grace is that it makes life not fair
Cause I’ve been housing all this doubt and insecurity and
I’ve been locked inside that house all the while You hold the key
And I’ve been dying to get out and that might be the death of me
And even though, there’s no way in knowing where to go, promise I’m going because
I gotta get outta here
Cause I’m afraid that this complacency is something I can’t shake
I gotta get outta here
And I’m begging You, I’m begging You, I’m begging You to be my escape.
I am a hostage to my own humanity
Self detained and forced to live in this mess I’ve made
And all I’m asking is for You to do what You can with me
But I can’t ask You to give what You already gave
Cause I’ve been housing all this doubt and insecurity and
I’ve been locked inside that house all the while you hold the key
And I’ve been dying to get out and that might be the death of me
And even though, there’s no way in knowing where to go, promise I’m going because
I’ve gotta get outta here
I’m stuck inside this rut that I fell into by mistake
I’ve gotta get outta here
And I’m begging You, I’m begging You, I’m begging
You to be my escape.
I fought You for so long
I should have let You in
Oh how we regret those things we do
And all I was trying to do was save my own skin
But so were You
So were you
The beer spills in a disgusting puddle and the glass becomes nothing but fragments of a rainbow.
Sometimes it can be so nice, right?
Sometimes she feel herself turn into the wife type
And when it's dark, sometimes is the nightlife
But most of the time she doesn't even feel lifelike
She got a man but he thinks hes a star
And it feels like she has to compete with the bar
She keeps up her guard but it seems so hard
Momma never told her she would see those scars
Every night hes out doin who knows whom
While she cries along like a new show tune
Last call past, is he comin home soon?
Or is he gonna run away with the dish and the spoon?
She'll realize she don't want that clown
Leave those shoes at the lost and found
He wont catch on until shes not around
After somebody else already locked that down
We sing...
Everything is all I have to give you
And I'm afraid it ain't enough
And you're not so young that you believe me
Just because I say it's love
And even if they come to steal you tomorrow
I'll know my smile was yours
Go ahead and chase your dreams and your freedom
Run, run wild wild horses
You can't tame these horses
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