well as the title says, i cant cope anymore.
im falling apart, im just gone.
i know this is pro th depression talking but i just cant do it anymore.
i cant go camhs anymore coz if they know how i feel they will put me back in hospital and i cant cope with that.. And my mum should have been home from work an hour ago and shes not back, i can police and ambulases over the back of my home on the A2 im worried she is in trouble.
" my precious, precious child, I love you and I would never, never leave you during your times of trials and suffering. When you see only one set of footprints it was then that I carried you" you were carried out of are lifes into the next and when its my time to leave this life I know i will be carried into the next life with you.
I wish i had my world complete again.
'Can we protend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars, i could really use a wish right now' BoB
Remember what you just said - this is the depression talking. You can get through it, and things will get easier again.
I think you really need to talk to someone - maybe being in hospital would be a good thing right now? They can keep you safe, and they can give you help to get you feeling better again. It might not feel like a good thing, but in the long run, it really could it. Alternatively, could you speak to them and see what other options are - maybe without going into hospital again, but just with more intensive help outside hospital? Or could you phone a helpline and speak to someone there?
Try not to worry about your mum - if you can hear police and ambulances, it's likely that traffic will be bad, so she might be finding it hard to get back. It's very likely that everything will be fine - so keep telling yourself that.
Stay safe, and look after yourself. I think treating yourself sounds like a good idea right now - maybe watch your favourite film, listen to your favourite song, do something you really enjoy, have a nice hot bath or something?
I know its really hard when you go through really low patches but you can fight this, like you said, its the depression talking. Im really not too good on advice at the mo but if you ever need to talk dont hesitate to PM me, my inbox is always open :)
Stay strong xxx
Carly xxx
I tried to be someone else, but nothing seemed to change
I know now this is who I really am inside
[I don't wanna die, but i ain't keen on living either]
mum come home at 12 last night.
i and feel worse today.
" my precious, precious child, I love you and I would never, never leave you during your times of trials and suffering. When you see only one set of footprints it was then that I carried you" you were carried out of are lifes into the next and when its my time to leave this life I know i will be carried into the next life with you.
I wish i had my world complete again.
'Can we protend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars, i could really use a wish right now' BoB
sxydaniella
Like everyone else said that it is just the depression talking. Im going through a very low spell myself, lets pull each other through this.
I hope your day is getting better.
Do you think you need hospital? What is it that you feel you can't cope with about it? What are the alternatives? Is there someone you trust who you can just talk to to help you through this? Are you on any medication? Maybe its time to have a chat with your dr about getting this changed or the dose adjusted?
It sounds like things are pretty bad for you again and I dont think it has been that long since you were discharged last. If things have dropped so quickly what has happened?
As you say it is the depression talking but depression talking or not feeling like this is pretty darn miserable. Is there anything you can do that has worked at lifting your mood and stopping the thoughts?
When we lose twenty pounds... we may be losing the twenty best pounds we have! We may be losing the pounds that contain our genius, our humanity, our love and honesty. ~Woody Allen
Is a chocolate muffin loving glitter ball
ive been home for 3months now.
i cant go back there.
it would kill my mum and little brother and most of all me.
i might talk to one of my teachers tomrrow but i know thy will go and phone camhs and i cant cope with that.
" my precious, precious child, I love you and I would never, never leave you during your times of trials and suffering. When you see only one set of footprints it was then that I carried you" you were carried out of are lifes into the next and when its my time to leave this life I know i will be carried into the next life with you.
I wish i had my world complete again.
'Can we protend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars, i could really use a wish right now' BoB
i was in there for four months about 12weeks ago and i hated it.
my brother would phone up and ask when i was coming home, my mum cried everynight, i cried everynight and i hated it. yer i met great peole in there but i cant do it again, i just cant.
" my precious, precious child, I love you and I would never, never leave you during your times of trials and suffering. When you see only one set of footprints it was then that I carried you" you were carried out of are lifes into the next and when its my time to leave this life I know i will be carried into the next life with you.
I wish i had my world complete again.
'Can we protend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars, i could really use a wish right now' BoB