So who would have ever thought I would reach this point... I'm at the fine line between recreational drug user and junkie. It all happened so quick. So when Im really depressed things get distorted, when Im manic things get distorted, when Im high things get distorted. So I am never really in my right mind anyway... If Ive got nothing better to do than sleep and watch tv, then I might as well get high and watch tv and sleep.
I've found a drug of choice... Now I just want to see what happens if I take more and more, I have found myself doing it a lot lately I drift off. Suposedly it causes hallucinations in great enough doses, Im gonna have to try that. I want that to happen.
So now I know why people use drugs, I never knew before, now I am nearly a junkie and I dont know what to do. I crave my next fix. It can never happen soon enough. people know I do it, but they think I do it occasionally, they dont know I need it. They ask me why, I have no answer, They say its stupid, I say whatever. Even more people dont know.
What can I do? I want more but I dont want more, but I need more....