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Old 07-10-2020, 04:42 PM   #141
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im supposed to wake up on time...



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Old 07-10-2020, 05:12 PM   #142
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i hate me!! i really hate me!!!! i shoud be less! LESS!!!!!! not at the weight i am now.......



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Old 08-10-2020, 01:46 AM   #143
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I’m not sure I understand. Why do you have to wake up at a certain time? And if you were poorly then they should understand that you may need more sleep. I know you don’t like therapist but maybe discussing these smaller things may be a way to build trust?





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Old 08-10-2020, 02:56 AM   #144
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they dont want us to be lazy.....

ok.. i'll try to talk to my therpist..



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Old 10-10-2020, 10:04 PM   #145
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do you think that stanta can make me dead?



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Old 10-10-2020, 10:17 PM   #146
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I’m not sure I understand, sorry x





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Old 10-10-2020, 10:30 PM   #147
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do you think that santa claus can make me dead?



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Old 11-10-2020, 12:20 AM   #148
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Oh. Then no. And I think you need to start talking to support staff and psychologist tbh. You have a lot of support available in addition to online things and even if it’s not how you wish it was, it’s better than nothing and if you can work out how to work together it could really help you. The more you talk to them, the better they’ll be able to understand you and adapt their approach to be supportive and helpful for you. Shutting them down doesn’t seem like it’s really helping you or leading to any positive changes in your life x





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Old 11-10-2020, 01:29 AM   #149
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Oh. Then no. And I think you need to start talking to support staff and psychologist tbh. You have a lot of support available in addition to online things and even if it’s not how you wish it was, it’s better than nothing and if you can work out how to work together it could really help you. The more you talk to them, the better they’ll be able to understand you and adapt their approach to be supportive and helpful for you. Shutting them down doesn’t seem like it’s really helping you or leading to any positive changes in your life x
This. They can help you in ways ryl cannot. You seem to want an immediate response hence why you post more than one post in a short space of time. Ryl is not immediate due to various factors. The staff are immediate if you make the effort to talk to them.

I am beginning to wonder what we can do in this thread as every suggestion you have had you dont seem to want. If you want someone to support you in your attempt at committing suicide then you won't find it here as that's not what ryl is about.


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Old 11-10-2020, 01:53 AM   #150
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Not so insig.....I agree with your sentiments but also think we need to be aware that it’s a process and as I’m sure you remember, we didn’t recover or get to a point where we could engage without support overnight.





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Old 11-10-2020, 01:58 AM   #151
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If I recall correctly you used to post a lot several years ago, even now you rant the same stuff about neighbour.....different cause but same kind of solution- ie addressing it but takes time to get to the point to do that





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Old 11-10-2020, 02:22 AM   #152
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If I recall correctly you used to post a lot several years ago, even now you rant the same stuff about neighbour.....different cause but same kind of solution- ie addressing it but takes time to get to the point to do that

Tbf regarding my neighbour i have asked for help from various people months ago but nobody wants to help me. They all say that they can't help because of covid they haven't had a response from various people and all that I can do is keep on documenting it. So I have tried it’s just that other people don't seem to want to help me. The r/v is a documentation should I lose it on my phone. But unlike the op I have tried instead of writing people off.

But it's gone off track now.


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Old 11-10-2020, 02:32 AM   #153
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I get that....but the waiting on other people and not actively doing anything yourself is kind of the same. Kindness doesn’t hurt.





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Old 11-10-2020, 02:33 AM   #154
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Would also say that you don’t know OP isn’t in the same situation and you’re being a bit judgy.

Tbh you come across in exactly the same way. And I’m sure that is because you don’t show all the details of your struggles, in the same way I’m sure the OP isn’t. So maybe we can all be a bit less judgemental.....





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How has it been speaking to neighbour or asking for more contact with services?





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Old 11-10-2020, 12:25 PM   #156
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Guys, let's bring the thread back on track please! If you feel like someone isn't taking on board your advice or frustrates you with their posting style, then I would suggest you step away from the thread rather than make judgemental comments.

Darkwings44, as mentioned before, this is your thread and you may use emoticons in any way you choose and post as frequently as you need. You may not always get an immediate response but hopefully you'll get supportive replies eventually- things are a just a bit slow these days I'm afraid! I've quoted the last post that was relevant to your situation if you'd like to reply to it. Please keep reaching out for support here.

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Oh. Then no. And I think you need to start talking to support staff and psychologist tbh. You have a lot of support available in addition to online things and even if it’s not how you wish it was, it’s better than nothing and if you can work out how to work together it could really help you. The more you talk to them, the better they’ll be able to understand you and adapt their approach to be supportive and helpful for you. Shutting them down doesn’t seem like it’s really helping you or leading to any positive changes in your life x



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oh.. wow.. can i say that you rule pomegranate!! you standing up for me is amazing! thank you!!!!!!

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the weekend staff is making me frustrated One of them (theres only one on duty today she gets off at 4:00 PM thank you god!!!!) are going on about shit that doesn’t even matter like me checking the time on the guide on the tv because theres no clock in the actively room and me getting on my laptop without her say so but its actually time for me to get on it and stuff like that she says that shes going to make me get off early than what I was supposed to be on and she says that shes going to make sure I don’t get on it next weekend too!!! >_< I really need a blade right about now!!!!!!!



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Old 12-10-2020, 01:37 AM   #159
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You know, I really think you need to speak to psychologist or an advocate because this doesn’t seem fair. You’ve also said before you aren’t under any legal guardianship or anything so I’d also question how legal this all is if that’s the case.

Do you have regular reviews with managers or a case lead at the group home? This is the kind of thing it might be helpful to bring up with them in those meetings if so.

Re ‘needing’ a blade. I’d beg to differ tbh. Sounds like you’re really upset and angry (and understandably so) and maybe a blade is how you’re used to handling those overwhelming feelings? That being said.....another way to look at it would be, is the douche bag staff member worth harming yourself over? Do you deserve a possibly permanent reminder of that person?

How you might otherwise manage those crappy feelings could maybe be something to talk with psychologist about? Not necessarily personal feelings if you don’t trust her just yet, but her ideas for how you can manage without turning to self harm...?





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Old 12-10-2020, 03:48 AM   #160
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Also, Thank you to Jenna (Pi (something maths related) for her response and being so fair. Therese, if you have any questions re rules or whatever Jenna is lovely and I’m certain she will reply fairly (even if it’s not the answer you want at that time)....if had some infractions from her but she has lived experience and generally is really wanting an open discussion.

For now I stick by what I said- I really think you need to speak to psychologist or the manager or an advocate or family (if you have that relationship) because unless it’s a legal thing the restrictions by staff need reviewing because they don’t seem helpful. Obviously we don’t know the ins and outs of your situation though but those are the people who may be able to support you. Even when I’ve worked with patients in psychiatric hospitals, we don’t stop internet access or control wake up times etc!! Maybe we don’t know the details of your situation but from what you’d said then speaking to a manager or an advocate or psychologist or even family might be beneficial.





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