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I saved my BFF from ending his life, and I can't figure out if I did the right thing or not.
Bit of a long post, but I appreciate any help right now when I'm in this situation.
So, a little background here. I've known him for over 4 years, since the start of highschool. We were best friends, sharing so much in common including depression. We've been constantly cheering each other up, saying it will always get better. Well, I did get a lot better thanks to therapist and medicine. But he just went down and down everyday and it breaks my heart seeing it. But I never had enough courage to tell his family to do something, apparently he was good at hiding it from his parents.
Last week I received a message from him, saying he just wanted to end it all. Very rarely will he message me like that, and if he does, it's never a joke. I panic, trying my absolute best to convince him otherwise, to no avail. He then gave me another message that he will do it the next day.
I was losing my mind. He was ready to let everything else go just to have his death, and he trusted only me to tell about his plan. But eventually I had to do it, I would never forgive myself for watching my friend die when I could have just stopped it. I made a phone call to his family and prevent him from doing it. And as I expected, he feels nothing but hatred and disgust towards me, for not allowing him to take his own life.
Everyone said I did the right thing, but I've been beating myself up about it. He was willing to leave everything behind, craving for nothing but a death to finally feel peaceful for once. And I was the horrible person who took that chance away, forcing him to live a life he doesn't want to. Did I do the right thing ? And will he ever forgive me for this ?
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