If the world didn't suck, we'd all fall off! (hmm)
Join Date: Oct 2005
Location: (West Midlands) Staffordshire "UK"
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Hey you beautiful people =] *kisses*
I just thought I’d like to let you all know that I’m back =]…. I had a much needed break (more than I thought I needed it actually) & it helped a great deal but the truth is……….. I’m beginning to miss you all like mad, like, it’s not even funny =D
SO. Here I am, Back! & a couple of pounds heavier (pounds that I needed to gain mind), I still need to gain more I know, but….. I’m not so sure I can do it on my own right now, because, I’m beginning to struggle once again and I’m afraid I’m going to come to that dreaded halt =/.
To cut my month (?) story break short,, here is how it went!
For the first couple of weeks since I was gone, my attempt at recovery was going so much better than I thought it would. I surprised myself & I ended up gaining 3lbs in the space of two weeks I think it was, But then….seeing them numbers getting higher totally freaked me out I guess, which resulted in me relapsing for a tad while & lost 2lbs. But then I managed to pull myself together a little and gain the 2 I lost AND an extra lb ! So now I’m 4lbs heavier now than what I was when I decided to take a short time out from this place. So yayness I guess =].
But now,,, I’m back at that horrid place I was just before I left. My thoughts are NOT healthy once again, and all I can think about is just loosing the lbs I have gained since I’ve been trying recovery. I WANT recovery. I WANT this to be all over. I WANT this so bad it’s unreal. I know I’ve worked so hard to gain these pounds but something’s telling me I NEED to get rid of them again. I don’t want to! I just feel I need to.
So I’m guessing this is why I’m back a little earlier than I planned. =].
So yus, here I am! =D… ready and willing to help you wonderful people again. Looking forward to catching up. Hope I haven’t missed anything too important.>_< & you are all resonalaby okay =]
CAZZYPANTS! *waves frantically* how you doing smelly? I missed your rather comical replies around here, you know. I'm so glad you're back!
remember GRB4evaaaz okay? We have a new person *nods* So get your arse online :)
Love you loads,
Alys xxx
If only you'd ever speak to me
the way you once did
look at me the way you once did
pull to me the way you once did
but you don't
you don't feel anymore
you don't care anymore
it's all gone
it's all gone
Caz! Welcome back! *huge huggles of excitement*
I'm sorry things are kind of crap right now, but remember why you choose recovery in the first place, i'm sure that far outweighs those extra HEALTHY pounds you've put on.
Anyway Welcome back again xx
Paige <3333 (x a million)
L_M_G is my mummy :) inkerman and razorbladedarling are my two non-identical twin sprogs (concieved on same day) Scabette< cos she has the cutest puppy dog eyes and i cant resist!feeling-afraid< my bottle of glitter!! which i just have to have :Pmidnight stars< my gorgeous sister, whom i love to bits ;) Dance With The Fairy< *star*gazing*buddie :] Broken-Fairy is my partner in crime ;) little_miss is my real life saviour PaperClip is my stationary queen
Well done for gaining the lbs, that is a huge step and you should be really
proud of yourself!
xxx
Well content loves the silence, It thrives in the dark, With fine winding tendrils,That strangle the heart,
They say that promises sweeten the blow, But I don't need them, No, I don't need them...
