If I take my morning meds I fall asleep within 15 minutes.
If I don't then my mood drops even more & i dont go into town and pay off my overdraft before the charge me £60 & i dont get the council tax sorted and i have to pay £200 that I don't have and don't get my benefits sorted and omg i can't cope with all this. I can't face going into town. I'm having an incredibly **** day. I got up and showered and everything and just can't face making that one last move.
back into the PJs. Calling up the mother crying down the phone.
OMG I just sent my mum a txt saying I really wasn't having a good day and now I'm scared so going to hide in my room and cry a lot.
It said: I'm not having a good day. I think my abbey [bank account] may be about to go overdrawn but every time I go to get ready to go to town to check/sort it out I just burst into tears. Is there any way you could pay like £20 in today [I paid £5 on my card & took £10 out] & I'll sort it out tomorrow? I'm sorry.
I get in a similar way a lot... just can't face doing things, will plan to get ready and everything but be totally unable to go through the door...
I really don't know what I can say to help... I'm not sure there is much you can do on one of those days, forcing yourself often achieves very little...
Not long till you can go home now! Just try keep that in your mind all of tomorrow to help you get through the day.
Re. the meds, you've not been on them that long have you? My current one's used to completely wipe me out the first few weeks I took them, I could barely walk to uni I was that exhausted. But if you can stick with them your body seems to adjust and the tiredness may decrease.
it is horrible feeling not feeling safe, you can do this, as heidi says it is not long
till you go home. offers hugs.
“Never lose faith in yourself,
and never lose hope;
remember, even when this world throws its worst and then turns its back,
there is still always hope.”
i want to scream and shout at the world.
i want to break down and have someone to hold me tight.
not just someone, but someone special.
& im a ****ing **** so i won't get that.
*cuddles*
Sometimes not going to work and sitting in your room and crying instead is the best thing you can do for yourself.
I am sorry you are feeling so lousy hun.
Take care
I'm selfish, impatient, and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I'm out of control, and at times hard to handle, but if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best.
~ Marilyn Monroe
When I first started my meds they knocked me out within fifteen minutes. Thankfully after a few weeks I got used to them and stopped feeling like a zombie.
Isn’t it funny how day by day nothing changes but when you look back, everything is different…
you once called your brain a hard drive, well say hello to the virus.
*sends chels squishes*
argh. i wish i wasn't such an idiot, and that i could say something to make you feel better. but chels, sweetie, you are a lovely person, and i can't think of any one who deserves to be feeling low less. please look after yourself yeh? i know i'm not the only person on here who thinks you're lovely!
hang in there x
I was stupid to think that just because I actually have something solid wrong with me & that my Dad's been acting differently & actually trying to help me out recently that it would last.
I hate mornings. I hate my meds. I hate everything except I don't have enough energy to hate it.
My meds I've just started (seroquel for manic depression) knocked me out the first few weeks, it was a nightmare. It does get better though, it really does.
Your dad doesnt understand and that must be really ****ing tough, but you need to concentrate on keeping safe, even if that means that you spend the week in your PJs in bed.
