theres been posts lately asking if they have an ED, a whil ago i was one of those posters and did what was suggested...went to my doctor and told him. since then my ED has got worse...so im posting this to let others know how much this sucks and how crappy it can be- well what it is for me. please if your asking 'do i have an ED' -> your best to get it checked out and plases get help as soon as you can.
im sick of ....
knowing i should eat
being exhausted even though ive done nothing to warrent this feeling.
not wanting to eat too much
knowing the truth but not accepting it
being labled 'eating disordered'
striving for that perfect number- yet never reaching it.
arguing with myself and others
crying because i screwed up again
wanting to fix it- trying yet always failing.
of having freckles, dimples and curly hair.
of an empty stomach - yet enjoying it
liying to people who care
analysisng cals/kj's of food