Contains sexual abuse - Another tie broken - Weight lifted (Could trigger)
For starters I just want to say sorry if I upset anyone reading this.
This has been going round in my head recently. I didn't really know how to get it out of my system. I have no-one I can really mention it to as it may be a strange way of thinking. I decided here is a safe place to mention it. I hope that's ok.
Well, for those of you who have read my previous threads about my ex, you will know how controlling he was and the bad things he did. You will know of his "opinions" on the use of condoms etc.
Throughtout the relationship he really messed with my head over babies and pregnancy. He use to this weird thing where he would rub my stomach and say "Jelly baby. Real baby". I never knew why he did it. He found it funny. Especially when he knew I didn't like it. I became very paranoid about falling pregnant with his child.
Well, I can say I am truely thankful. It's be just over 9 months now that I have been free of him, which means, I am more free of him than ever knowing I will never have his child. He no longer has that hold over me.
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