My sister

[chinahorse]

Love is the most powerful force there is in my opinion.

She and your family are so lucky to have someone like you tamo. Keep fighting.

[tamobhuuta]

I'm a bit worried because the plumber is in the bathroom. What if he's installing cameras or something?

[chinahorse]

He is a plumber not an electrician. He fixes water and doesnt deal with electricity.

Can you speak to someone about your concerns?

[tamobhuuta]

I told my sister it was making me nervous but didn't explain about the cameras. He was making her nervous too.

[one_step_closer]

How are you feeling now? Will you speak to your parents if you're still concerned?

[tamobhuuta]

I told L and she reassured me. I got really stressed, tried everything on my list, ended up taking lorazepam, now I feel better.

[one_step_closer]

Well done for trying the things on your list. It's ok to take PRN if you need to, you always put a lot of effort into managing yourself before turning to PRN. I hope you have a better day today.

[tamobhuuta]

We had the police round again today, I'm really scared of losing my sister.

[one_step_closer]

That does sound scary and upsetting. Have you said to your sister just how much you worry about her?

[tamobhuuta]

I don't want to guilt trip her. But I can give her a hug.

[one_step_closer]

I can understand not wanting to make her feel guilty but maybe it would help her if she doesn't already realise how things affect you. She might think twice before doing something that could distress you. I hope things with your sister improve soon, it's so horrible to be afraid for a loved one. How are you managing your worries?

[tamobhuuta]

Just distracting with TV. It's weird but the usual anxious feelings I get have been ok today despite being so scared about my sister.

[tamobhuuta]

Having a bad day. Anxious and scared of the Organisation and the implant in my neck. I've done everything on my list, my mum helped me use therapy skills. I have tried PRN and it hasn't helped. I'm 'relaxing' in front of the TV, treating myself to chocolate. You know, being kind to myself. This is the most scared of the Organisation I've been in weeks, maybe months.

[one_step_closer]

I'm sorry today is difficult for you, remember that this should pass. Well done for trying things and for reaching out here. I'm glad you've spoken to your Mum about things, please keep talking to her as I know she is often helpful. Do you think something has triggered this today?

[tamobhuuta]

I just woke up like this and it's getting worse.

[one_step_closer]

That must be really horrible, how have you managed other times you've felt like this? You can get through this.

[tamobhuuta]

To be honest this would normally result in SH.

[one_step_closer]

It's great that you've been holding off then, I hope you recognise that. Can you think of anything that will stop you from self harming? Keep trying the safe things that you are doing.

[tamobhuuta]

If watching tv doesn't help I might ask for someone to go for a little walk with me.

[one_step_closer]

How are you managing today? I hope it's a better day for you.