Does Anyone Else Struggle With This?

[PaleMoon]

So things are going pretty well on the ED front. Body image is getting better (despite gaining a bunch of weight), no restricting, no purging.

But something is still nagging me. I have this innate fear of being hungry, and of there not being enough food.

I know that it is most likely my body's response to the long-term restricting I put it through. So I figure, I eat, it'll learn that there is food, that being hungry doesn't mean I'm restricting again.

Well, I eat now (well, sometimes I binge), but it just won't go away, this nagging fear of never again being able to eat the foods I love or just eat in general. It's gotten to the point where I inhale every meal I eat, scared that if I don't get it down fast enough, someone will take it away or something. It's irrational, it's annoying, and I don't know what to do about it.

Does anyone else struggle with this? What do you do about weird food fears like that? Sorry for rambling.

[MissAnonymous]

I think I vaguely know what you mean. At times I have stuffed my face not because it was a binge but because I didnt want to be hungry for a moment longer. I fear that [whilst I am restricting] everyone else will eat my nice foods and that can be part of the trigger for a binge to me.

I dont know what advice to give, but I dont think you are alone in feeling like this (hugs) xx

[Annaberry]

I know how you feel, I get like this sometimes.
Before you start eating take a deep breath to sort of ground yourself, and tell yourself that there is going to be more food.
You can enjoy food, and it can be a terrible feeling after you eat fast. Try and eat slowly. I know it can be hard to keep control but do try to stay aware of what you're doing. Take it one bite at a time, and keep reminding yourself that the food isn't going to go anywhere.

I hope this has been of some help.
Well done on stopping restricting!
Hugs and support <3

[EyelinerAndCigarettes]

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Originally Posted by MissAnonymous

I fear that everyone else will eat my nice foods and that can be part of the trigger for a binge to me.

I'm exactly the same & the same in respects to freaking out & not being able to stand hunger; Simply because my body is starving & reaching out for food whenever it can, mentally too (dreaming of food etc), Maybe your body hasn't quite recovered from being starved? I know when I was IP I was told that I'll feel this way for a long time to come because severe malnourishment & its effects on your body can sometimes take years to fully recover. Have you thought about talking to your team/GP about how you feel? They might have some advice.

Stay strong honey, your doing so well.

x x x