Everything looks steady. Had a good resonable day at school. What i would call maybe uneventful. The days that sometimes seem the dullest, because nothing is happening. I feel so numb and confused at the moment, slightly depressed because i just came back from counselling, where we talked about nothing. Nothing.Nothing. Talked about the good things in my life, but deep down i felt, still do, like crying. I cant even explain why. If its on an impulse or if this just isnt me. I know that may be cruel to say, but at the moment, i am not sure of who i really am, even though its been nearly one and a bit years that i have been in counselling. So torn and confused. I feel like sh but i dont know, maybe i just want to cry. I dont even know why. I have been trying not to let things get to me but i am so confused, nothing seems to make sense at the moment. Deep down i know what i want, but i dont know why i want this. I am hurting so badly and at the moment its like my words, as i am reading back over them, seem so fasle and untrue to me. Though i know that isnt true. I just cannot go deeper with how i am feeling.
Hannah
