The Borderline Personality Disorder Thread

[Colour Blind]

How are we all tonight?

[Doikers]

How are you Colour?

[Colour Blind]

Honestly? I'm sat crying.

How was your Granny today?xxx

[Tig]

What's wrong Colour? *Gentle hugs* x

[Colour Blind]

I've just been to my opening night of my graduation show. I couldn't even celebrate because i had to drive and not drink because i'm once again in too much pain to walk. Plus I felt really anxious in the social situation and just had to leave. Uni is over and I feel really vulnerable without the routine and the security. Results are out tomorrow. I've had this really low mood for about two weeks now I can't shake and I just want to give up. Although I finished my assessment for therapy today I still have to wait up to 10 months to start treatment. I feel lost and overwhelmed.

/end ramble.

How are you Tig?

[Vampiric Addiction]

Sorry for bounding in on your thread but... Did anyone else have difficulty in getting a diagnosis from their gp? Or even a referral?

She agrees BPD does seem likely given the list of symptoms I've reeled off at her, but she's reluctant - I believe she said she didn't want to (paraphrasing here) lumber me with such a diagnosis as it's so stigmatised etc... But if she was in my head, she might think differently - that anything has to be better than how things feel right now...

[crazykat]

Mari congrats on your mark

dreamchaser try not to beat yourself up over this, we all relapse sometimes. Try and be easy on yourself

Good luck for the interview Sarah

Good luck for your assessment Colour

How is everyone else?

Vampiric no I haven't had that experience, but I hope you get something sorted out for you

[Colour Blind]

Vampiric, I think a psych has to diagnose you, not a GP.

Hi Kat, how are you today?

[Cryptic.]

Mari, congrats on your results :) I'm getting my GCSE's results on the 24th of August, pretty anxious! But well done on yours! Really impressed especially as it's been a hard time for you.

Hey Kat, how are you today? Colour, how's you too?

And anyone else who reads this, how is everyone?

[Colour Blind]

Sarah, is that you but with a new name? =]

[Cryptic.]

Yep ;p How dya like it? Haha.

[Colour Blind]

I like it. How's things with you?xxx

[Cryptic.]

I'm okay, I think, lol, how are you doing?

[Colour Blind]

Not great. Saw the CMHT this morning. No one can do any more than monitor me ATM and it just feels very lonely.

Do you have plans for today?

[Cryptic.]

Oh no, that's not good. Why can't they do anything more than that? Surely there's something? *cuddles if you want them, granted, they're virtual!*

Umm, not really no! I might later on call the open uni place up and sort out what modules I can do and what course I can do, but I'm awful with phones and I kind of don't even wanna think about open uni tbh right now. I dunno why. I'm just, well, yeah, lol I dunno.

What do you have plans for today?
x

[Colour Blind]

They've done all they can and I'm functioning so that's that really.

I have to go get my degree results and then go to work later.

I'm thecsamecwith phones. Maybe write down what you need to ask or say before you call?xxx

[Cryptic.]

Do you want anything from them or are you okay with just being monitored? Do you still see anyone or no?

Ohhh, goodluck with your results!

I think that's a good idea! I will do that :) Thank you x

[Doikers]

writing stuff down beforehand can help yus , I've done that before .

I am sorry I just can't focus on all the posts I missed but I'll try and keep up today , I'm just up myself and am getting royally fed up with being low and the zero motivation and concentration that brings.

*Hugs My Threadlings*

[Cryptic.]

Are you seeing anyone professionally right now Doikers? Maybe talking to someone about how low you are right now could help?

I hope you feel better soon.

x

[crazykat]

Colour sorry your not feeling great, hope you feel better soon

Sarah maybe writing down what you need to say would help. Good luck with ringing them.

Mark sorry your feeling low, here if you want to talk