I think a lot of people have a specific time in the day when they feel worse. Maybe you could keep that in mind so you can tell yourself that the urges should lessen. I hope you're doing ok today.
I put it down on paper and then the ghost does not ache so much.
Don't try to calm the storm, calm yourself, the storm will pass.
I don't see anything about you that would make me think you're evil. I think you should try and focus on the opposite of evil, and what good things you already do and what good things you can do. We all have bits of bad in us anyway but it doesn't mean we need to be destroyed.
I put it down on paper and then the ghost does not ache so much.
Don't try to calm the storm, calm yourself, the storm will pass.
I know those negative feelings, it doesn't mean you are bad though. Well done for keeping going with the distractions. Would it help to talk to your Mum? I know that sometimes she can offer some reassurance.
I put it down on paper and then the ghost does not ache so much.
Don't try to calm the storm, calm yourself, the storm will pass.
Feelings are really powerful so if they are attached to a thought no wonder it feels like the truth. I understand. Is there a safe way to dampen down the feelings?
I put it down on paper and then the ghost does not ache so much.
Don't try to calm the storm, calm yourself, the storm will pass.
I made hot chocolate to soothe myself. And I'm distracting from deep thoughts. I cleared the kitchen to prove I wasn't evil but that was for my own benefit so doesn't count as good.