AND STOP USING THAT WORD. IT IS NOT LIKE YOU AND MAKES YOU SOUND LIKE A NICE PERSON AND YOU ARE NOT.
And there is no need for capitals Jenna, nobody cares.
^I do. Come find me if you need to, love, I'm listening.
I will continue to mention how lucky I am and feel, because if I lose this it'll be important to remember how wonderful I feel currently and how it's possible to be alive and be thankful to be alive, and if I don't; I don't ever want to become complacent, everything is too special and I'll be damned if I'm going to take it for granted.
Now I'll play your ghost as my ace, whenever I'm led astray.
But I am actually good, can't help it if we're tilted.
I'm in my right place, don't be a downer.
You are all shithouses - I have done nothing but work my ass off for weeks and you've all codded me along like I'm a simpering moron.
You put 22 other people ahead of me that you don't even know. Even being your 8th choice would have been understandable. Clearly I was never going to fit in with your team and you would much rather keep me at arm's length on reception. Like all the time I never fit in, there's a sixth sense. This is no longer my career, you've slammed the door in my face and that speaks volumes.
I never thought I would ever say this about the best job I ever had but just wait. Once I get the chance my way, I am outta here. And you can all get fucked!
I wake up in the mornings wishing I had died in the little sleep I got. My whole body hurts and I have lost the words to express how desperate I am right now. I need your help but I'm too exhausted to ask.
Let us go then you and I, when the evening is spread out against the sky, like a patient etherized upon a table
- T.S. Elliot
X - I'm here when you're ready. I don't want to push you.
Y - damn ideas of reference telling me the 'accidental' addition of yet more pills on my repeat means I have to OD. Silly billy pharmacist/doctors.
Z - You're right, I think me not thinking I'm worth the fight will mean treatment doesn't work as well as it should. I'm trying not to be an ungrateful bitch and appreciate the help I'm getting. it's just fear that I don't actually deserve it, and I'm using something I'm far, far too evil for.
Two weeks. You've turned my life upside down in two weeks. Imagine what's going to happen in however much time we have? I'm so excited.
But, I miss cutting. I do, and I don't know why. It's been almost a month, I think, maybe more. But I have no reason to cut, and it would be a pointless action to upset you so much, Panda.
Now I'll play your ghost as my ace, whenever I'm led astray.
But I am actually good, can't help it if we're tilted.
I'm in my right place, don't be a downer.
My skin is red and sore because I didn't feel clean. Things happened and it made me unclean and I didn't want you to know, so I tried to get clean enough. But I just got hurt instead of clean and don't know what to do because you're going to know that I'm dirty and tainted because I can't get clean. I mean, I must have had an allergic reaction to my bubble bath or something.
Please get here soon.
Now I'll play your ghost as my ace, whenever I'm led astray.
But I am actually good, can't help it if we're tilted.
I'm in my right place, don't be a downer.
i am so confused. why do these ideas keep popping into my head? i feel upset, and crazy. i know i'll never have proof if it happened or not. why do i keep wondering? surely this isn't normal.
Thank you so much for your kidness.
It has meant so much to me.
i know we dont know each other in real life apart from our brief meetings and you prob think nothing of me understandably but i feel so close to you.
We've spoken a lot without really talking i think - if thats possible.
i thank you for not judging me, not shouting at me and allowing me to tell you the truth.
That has meant so much to me.
im not sure what to do right now.
i want to do whats best for you in this situation too but right now im not sure what that is.
im scared.
Either way im just scared.
i do not always manage to be around but i wish you all the very best - love and luck to you all!
Your a pathetic degusting excuse for a human being! I woud rather like the chance to tell you to your face what I tihnk of you, without fear of coincequences.
Now I'll play your ghost as my ace, whenever I'm led astray.
But I am actually good, can't help it if we're tilted.
I'm in my right place, don't be a downer.