Triggering (Suicide/Sexual Abuse) - dont like it anymore

[flowers]

i hate it i hate it

its all my fault and i dont wanna be here anymore
i want out i want gone
i should never have told
should have kept my mouth closed

i dont like it anymore dont like haveing to talk about what he did what they did
dont like what i did i should never have told and now its all my fault have made loads of trouble.

i am so bad so naughty and so horrible

i cant get outta my head what he did i see him there morning noon and night comeing into my room doing things to me
holding his belt ready to beat me.

i wanna get away from here runaway i hate it here i wanna go home but i cant can never go back there

i hate them i hate me

[crazykat]

Hang in there sweetheart, it can and will get better. It may take time and the memory may not even ever leave you completely but it can become less intense and not feel so overwhelming. I know it may not seem like it right now but you did the right thing by telling, now you can learn to deal with it and move on. You are not naughty or bad for telling, infact i see you as the complete opposite. You are strong, brave and a survivor don't forget that. Suicide is never the answer, there is always another way out. Is it possible that you can speak to the people who are wanting you to talk and tell them how much you are struggling with having to tell them and perhaps slow it down. Its ok to tell them your not quite ready to talk about it yet. Keep your chin up sweetheart it can get better. Take care and i am here if you ever need to talk
Kat xxx

[((deleted))]

hey babe, sorry i don't have much advice, but maybe you could print out this thread and show it to the people who want you to talk?

*mucho huggles*

Ruthie

[Schleier von Dunst]

I'm sorry hun I don't have much that'll help. Just backing up what crazykat said, you're strong, you did the right thing. You're not bad, not naughty, you did the best thing. well done. you know where to find me whenever you want to talk hun *hugs*

[pixie*lyssie]

Hun... it's not your fault... it never was ok? You haven't done anything wrong... THEY have... whoever abused you is the one in the wrong and you didn't deserve it. Things look so grim now but I promise you are worth more than this and things will look up soon enough. Can you tell anyone? Do you see a therapist? Maybe a close friend? I'm not sure what to say but you didn't do anything wrong, ok! PM me if you need to, I'm always around.

xx

Lyssie

[abba12]

you can do this, you can get through it, be brave