Sorry for the lack of individuals, and my disappearance. I haven't really been on much since Friday and it's now Monday morning. Been trying to get myself back together after going with my housemate up to the hospital.
For anyone that asked: He is fine - looks like he had a migraine because the treatment for that got his pain back to something manageable and he managed to sleep... For most of the next few days.
As for me: I've been sleeping quite a bit as well. Struggling to keep on top of things, but I do have a nasty chest infection that I'm also struggling to keep on top of. My anorexic mindset is tending to win and I'm not even sure that I want it to lose, and I'm struggling with urges (SI and suicide). But I guess that it will all work itself out.
Just got to hold on because it can't rain all the time, right??
*leaves stuffed animals, cuddles and safe care packages for all then bunkers down in the warren somewhere invisible*
She shouts, she screams, she smashes your dreams . . .
Would you mind if I killed you? Would you mind if I tried to?
'Cause you have turned into my worst enemy,
You carry hate that I don't feel: It's over now WHAT HAVE YOU DONE
* Proud Plumeria Sister * My Support Thread * I got lei'd in vets *
* My RYL Family: big brother Doikers; little sisters MammaMia & flutterby butterfly *
She shouts, she screams, she smashes your dreams . . .
Would you mind if I killed you? Would you mind if I tried to?
'Cause you have turned into my worst enemy,
You carry hate that I don't feel: It's over now WHAT HAVE YOU DONE
* Proud Plumeria Sister * My Support Thread * I got lei'd in vets *
* My RYL Family: big brother Doikers; little sisters MammaMia & flutterby butterfly *
Checking in until I get through therapy on Tuesday..
I'm scared...there's so much that seems to be hanging on this appointment (even though I know logically it's not half as dire as I think it is, I've been reassured by *countless* people that my job is still not in danger, but it feels like it's hanging in the balance...and I love it so much and I do NOT want to lose it because of THIS....and I want to get better but but..
I'm scared...I'm so totally irrationally scared...
Walks over to her favourite bean bag, curls up and tries to think
tada magic i dunno how i got this -------> Í
hi julie 'm 26 i love hugs i have people in my head and they will talk to u. they will behave and they wont hurt u they are...
owen nearly 10 and doesnt like being touched
amy 11 quiet and shy
kate 15 has lotsa anger but is nice
so basically i'm that weirdo who talks to herself...hi...
She shouts, she screams, she smashes your dreams . . .
Would you mind if I killed you? Would you mind if I tried to?
'Cause you have turned into my worst enemy,
You carry hate that I don't feel: It's over now WHAT HAVE YOU DONE
* Proud Plumeria Sister * My Support Thread * I got lei'd in vets *
* My RYL Family: big brother Doikers; little sisters MammaMia & flutterby butterfly *
tada magic i dunno how i got this -------> Í
hi julie 'm 26 i love hugs i have people in my head and they will talk to u. they will behave and they wont hurt u they are...
owen nearly 10 and doesnt like being touched
amy 11 quiet and shy
kate 15 has lotsa anger but is nice
so basically i'm that weirdo who talks to herself...hi...
Sorry to hear that Amy. Are you and Julie okay? Can I give/offer you a hug?
She shouts, she screams, she smashes your dreams . . .
Would you mind if I killed you? Would you mind if I tried to?
'Cause you have turned into my worst enemy,
You carry hate that I don't feel: It's over now WHAT HAVE YOU DONE
* Proud Plumeria Sister * My Support Thread * I got lei'd in vets *
* My RYL Family: big brother Doikers; little sisters MammaMia & flutterby butterfly *
I'm back at home now :S it was fun being around my family but 4 nights is pushing my limits , I'm so dissapointed I didn't get to meet up with my best friend and give her her birthday presants but I'll give them to her when we meet next. I hope everyone is doing okay this morning / Afternoon / evening :)
I'm still not comfortable in my skin and the anasthetic's slowly wearing thin - Otep
Everyones lost but me! - Indiana Jones
It's okay , they know me here .
Kahlia1981 is my adopted little sister :)
''Courage doesn't always roar , sometimes courage is that little voice at the end of the day that says I'll try again tomorrow"
*hugs Mark* I know what you mean about being around family for a long-ish period of time.
I so can't be bothered with life any more. Daily tasks push me to my limit an dI have so much to do today: take my car to the garage, meet with my support worker to go to the gym, get my stitches taken out, pick up my car. And hidden in all of this is just another day. I'm sick of every day being just another day. I need friends and family but no one is around and my social anxiety makes it hard to communicate. I'm also scared about getting my stitches out because they are the only thing that is stopping me from self harming.
I put it down on paper and then the ghost does not ache so much.
Don't try to calm the storm, calm yourself, the storm will pass.
*Hugs Lindsay* I'm sorry your day seems so overwhelming , Please try not to self harm once you have your stitches out , You are stronger than you give yourself credit for and you are worth so much more :) I hope your day goe's well Lindsay .
My day is busy to , At 10.10am I have to have Lithium bloods taken as my levels were the highest they could be without being toxic last time , Then I have to pay my bills , get stuff for my brother in law to put on my sisters cake , go to the cyber cafe to find a volunteer shift then home for lunch......Then 2pm meet with my befriending for people with mental illness lady , then 3.30pm meet my nurse ,phew!!
I'm still not comfortable in my skin and the anasthetic's slowly wearing thin - Otep
Everyones lost but me! - Indiana Jones
It's okay , they know me here .
Kahlia1981 is my adopted little sister :)
''Courage doesn't always roar , sometimes courage is that little voice at the end of the day that says I'll try again tomorrow"
Hi Needhelp *Waves* Please be safe , the urges are tough but they don't win ever, just a little blip and then you win for all the days you don't S.I. .
Also My Ruin fan??
Last edited by Doikers : 13-09-2010 at 09:37 AM.
Reason: My Ruin??
I'm still not comfortable in my skin and the anasthetic's slowly wearing thin - Otep
Everyones lost but me! - Indiana Jones
It's okay , they know me here .
Kahlia1981 is my adopted little sister :)
''Courage doesn't always roar , sometimes courage is that little voice at the end of the day that says I'll try again tomorrow"