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FOR GOD'S SAKE!!!!
I couldn't ask her about the Anxiety Assessment... Because she cancelled on me!!
I'm not happy about that, I haven't had a session in 3 weeks...
ah, dont worry about it, ive heard worse things, sometimes while im eating XD
oh and i use to have episodes of violent illness, where id bring up everything i ate, which sometimes meant 'exploding at both ends' as my mum politely calls it XD thats not fun lol. i dont get that anymore, it stopped as mysteriously as it started.
So if you wanna burn yourself remember that I love you
And if you wanna cut yourself remember that I love you
And if you wanna kill yourself remember that I love you
Call me up before you're dead
We can make some plans instead
Send me an IM, I'll be your friend Kimya Dawson - Loose Lips - Juno Soundtrack
FOR GOD'S SAKE!!!!
I couldn't ask her about the Anxiety Assessment... Because she cancelled on me!!
I'm not happy about that, I haven't had a session in 3 weeks...
And I've been anxious again recently as well... I've got diarrhoea again (sorry, thats disgusting)
When is your next session?
Nah it's not disgusting, im pretty sure it's a result of anxiety cause I can get it too when im not feeling too great.
On Thursday night, I had my first panic attack, and it was honestly one of the scariest things I think I've ever experienced... I was in the house alone, and it took about 3 hours before I got back to sleep..
Then yesterday my heart kept beating fast sometimes, and my breathing would feel a bit funny, but I only had one more proper attack in the day..
Haven't had another one since then, but I just feel really on edge now all the time! And I haven't been in school, because the idea of it happening in school was just way too scary..
And I'm finding it so hard to sleep, because everytime I start relaxing, its like when I get close to sleep, my breathing will hitch or something, or my heart will beat a bit faster, and it wakes me up worrying about having another attack!
argh, its so annoying!! Idk what the point of this was, I just felt like telling someone I guess.. =/
A thousand mile journey starts with the first step
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I have no idea what makes me anxious... Situations, really, certain situations.
And I have no idea when my next session is, she called me on Wednesday or Tuesday but I couldn't talk because I was busy so she said she'd call me the next day, but she didn't and she still hasn't called...
So I don't know when I'm seeing her next.
Which is pretty rubbish.
I don't even know my reaction to anxiety is going to happen though. I don't feel really anxious beforehand, which slightly worries me because then that means that I don't know what's going on in my brain or how I'm actually feeling...
A thousand mile journey starts with the first step
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Why is it that even when I think of happy things my heart beats so hard in my chest I feel like I'm going to throw up or stop breathing??
It confuses me so much!
It's supposed to be something that makes me happy or makes me feel good... And I feel like I'm going to die?
I don't understand.
If I were you I would go to the doctors, cause that just sounds awful.
Your therapist doesn't matter at the moment, she is being naff. Make an appointment as soon as possible. x
A thousand mile journey starts with the first step
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I have an appointment with her now, in 2 weeks.
But I dunno... I'll create a scenario in my head which'll make me really anxious and I'll think of it over and over and play it in my head in different ways and I'll feel really sick and then I can't breathe and I won't be able to stop thinking about it... It just spirals out of control.
I'm on diazepam for anxiety but i'm feeling really anxious right now. I don't get it. I can't keep still. I think i'm going to wear my teeth away cause I keep chewing things.
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I'll try and cope for the next 2 weeks...
You're a grinder too? I do that as well, it annoys me so much cos I have quite a large gap where I grind them...
But it's so calming and if I stop I feel like I need to carry on doing it cos I have to do something.
It's horrible cause I'm so scared of my teeth wearing away. I often do it when I wear my retainer and have noticed a fairly large dent in it. Yea it keeps me busy and takes my mind off things.
Anyway I'm off to the Doctors again, I'm hoping it's going to be more productive this time.
Today has been a good day. I have been doing ICT coursework for most of it, just went for a lovely walk & i'm meeting my Dads girlfriend tonight.
Although last night wasn't too great. I usually drink every time I'm out in the evenings but I can't now. I was anxious & quiet and was smoking loads. Probably 10-15 minutes between each cigarette.
