Can't get him off my mind
Hi guys, I just needed to get this out. There’s this guy that I know from high school. I haven’t seen him for years, but we talk on the net every now and then. We spoke on the internet a few nights ago, and reminisced about some stuff that happened between us when we were at school. We had feelings for each other, but never ended up getting together, because I didn’t have the guts to break up with my boyfriend at the time. He said he remembers more about me than most other people, and that he still has some love note that I gave him (I can't even remember writing one). Anyway, talking him brought back all these memories, and I can’t stop thinking about him. It all happened so long ago, and I don’t think he’s the same person he was back then.
I considered telling him about my feelings, but decided against it. I couldn't if he was joking or what. It’s pretty pointless, seeing as he’s recently moved to Glasgow and I’m still in Australia. He said he’s coming back to Australia early next year, which confuses me even more, because a part of me wants to wait for him; however, I highly doubt he has any feelings for me at all. Plus I don’t think I’m in the right frame of mind to be in a relationship right now.
I’m just frustrated because I keep thinking about him. I can’t even sit down and study without being distracted! I’m trying my hardest to get over all this stuff in the past and move forward, but it seems everything, even the little things, keep catching up to me.
Sorry for the rant. I keep trying to distract myself, but nothing really seems to work. Thanks for taking the time to read this.
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