Suicidal

[Irisflower]

Sometimes when things are bad but you have a workable option, it can help to think, "I will do this just for today." Can you stay just for today?

[Bellatrix]

Self harm is an addiction. You are addicted to the pain.

Can you work with your therapist on addiction solving skills?

[chinahorse]

I'm staying till the weekend as I'm going to my dad's. But I have therapy tomorrow and an appointment for my foot which triggers me. I'm taking it moment by moment but it's spilling out mainly to jodie which isn't fair.

[Bellatrix]

Would it help to come up with a few things to talk about in therapy?

[chinahorse]

Yes. It's the most excrutiating experience.

[Unbreakable.]

Taking it one moment at a time is a good approach.

Talk to us. Message me anytime. I might not always have the most helpful of words, but I can be there for you and keep you company for a bit.

[Bellatrix]

Ok so things you could take about.

Self harm addiction
Thoughts of wanting to leave
Your future
Eating
What triggers you about your foot.

What else would you add?

[Uglyducklin]

Hey Hun thinking of you. Please hang in there. Bellatrix is very wise and I can only echo her words xx

[Bellatrix]

I am very wise!!!!! :P

How are you feeling now Lillie? How about going back to the Cassel?

Any thoughts on where you want to go from here?

Do you still want to self harm? Maybe we can create a plan to keep you safe next weekend?

[chinahorse]

Help creating a plan would be good as I have to go home. I don't find it easy to stay safe at home.

[Bellatrix]

Okay so what kind of stuff would be useful?

You're home Fridaynight - Sunday afternoon. That's friday night, saturday day, saturday night and sunday day to keep safe.

Remember you have the cassel (and me) to call/text if things get rough.

Maybe on Saturday morning you could pop out and get some craft stuff (I'll lend you some money) and spend that days crafting? You could also take a colouring book and every time you get an urge colour one bit in, then another and another until the urge has passed.

Friday night you could go out to Aldi and get some food and spend the evening cooking things you can put in Tupperware boxes in the fridge for dinners the next two nights. You could get really adventurous with cooking with herbs and spices and such.

And Sunday morning you could tidy up and hoover your room. Maybe go through some of your stuff and make a charity shop bag to take to the charity shop next time you're down. And if you're struggling there's nothing wring with going back a bit early and wondering around the area until it's time to go back.

What else do you think would help keep you safe?

[Bellatrix]

How you doing now it's nearly weekend?

[Bellatrix]

Now that you're at home do you want to talk about what you'[re going to do to keep safe?

[chinahorse]

I've been ok so far. I went to the Dr's yesterday and then to the supermarket.

I've done my errands and been charity shop shopping for clothes that fit. I've done laundry and other errands in town. I've had a nap.

Now I'm not sure what to do with myself. I don't feel any more unsafe than usual tbh. I'm a bit worried about myself as the evening continues.

[Sketchy]

It's good you've been keeping busy. Is there anything you can plan to do in the evening? What about arranging to phone someone, so you have someone to talk to?

[chinahorse]

That's a good idea. I will phone my grandparents

[Sketchy]

Good plan. :)

[Bellatrix]

How you getting on?

[chinahorse]

I'm ok thanks. Dreading going back tomorrow but nothing new there.

I have the pain clinic on monday and I'm scared they will say I'm making it up.

[Unbreakable.]

How did it go?