I've been clinically depressed for about two years, and I thought I got over it, but now I'm back to where I was. There's been some bad news around - my ex-girlfriend's having my baby and doesn't want me in their lives, that's the main thing. The others are just college people being twats and a girl I live with not managing her own problems and coming to me for help. I can't handle my own problems, and especially not hers.
Thing is... I've got a massive support network around me, but I don't want to use it. I'm so used to feeling like this that I don't want to change. I know why this is, though - there's things I want to do (self harm again) but if I got help I wouldn't be able to do them. I don't actually want the help.