E was a friend of mine we met at an eating disorders group she was so lovely to everyone and had the most amazing red hair.
Yesterday she commited suicide.
She text me at 9.30am going i need to go hospital I told her to go and if she could grt derby a&e i'd go with her but she said there was one up the road amd she'll go.
she never did.
Found out today she hung herself.
point im getting at:
Yes you may feel theres no way out bit suicide affects everyone. From family/frriends/aquaitances and everyone who has ever heard of you.
please it is not the answer.
R.I.P E
Gonna miss you girl and i'll cuddle up to my blankie I got when I was with you.
Make sure you get the support you need, too.
I'm sorry to hear about this. Really.
Get some rest time to process this and ask for support If needed.
Thinking of you
It's going to be tough for a while and I'm thinking If It were me I'd be finding It difficult to ask for support at that time for a few different reasons but from where I am you need the support and It's a good idea.
Do you have a cmht? Or a gp that you could talk to?
I'm thinking someone who really knows what they're talking about but isn't really involved.
How would you feel about speaking to your parents about it?
Suicide is a thing that's so frowned upon in this society, but honestly, life isn't for everybody. It really isn't. It's sad when kids kill themselves 'cause they didn't really give it a chance, but life is like a movie: if you've sat through more than half of it and it sucked every second so far, it probably isn't gonna get great right at the very end for you and make it all worthwhile. Life is like animal porn, not everybody will like it no one should blame you for walking out early. Dont get any ideas....if you feel this upset get help phone a crisis line line the Samaritans
I agree, suicide isn't the answer. You don't need that drastic a permanent solution, to a temporary problem. The sad thing is you don't live to regret suicide :c
To everyone out there that's thinking about it, don't do it. People do care, even if you think they don't - they do. If you need to talk, message me.
All the best and much love~
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