I can understand where you are coming from. I was SH for 4 years then on and off for another 6 years. I knew it was stupid, but kept a couple bits from the early days. I told myself it was a safety net, but it always played on my mind that it was there ready and waiting. Which I found to relapse more easy. I kept the box, although I got rid of the contents, and replaced them with more positive things.
We are all different. We heal in different ways. But I found it to be such a relief to be rid of all my 'kit'. If you are continuously thinking about it being there, there is a subconscious need for 'just in case'. Which isn't helpful as I experienced.
As you said 'for emergencies'. Which is something you may want to put firmly in the past, the temptation may not be worthwhile.
All my best to you either way hun. PM me if you need.
Last edited by RaeNoctem : 21-08-2018 at 06:08 AM.