Tired of fighting the urge
Hi, I'm Kit. I'm currently in a not so optimal headspace and could use some support.
I find it very difficult to explain my emotions, which makes it all more difficult. So I'll try to refrain from trying to explain my reasoning and possible cause and simply stick to the facts: I feel the constant urge to hurry myself and it is getting worse day by day. I am so damn stressed out and at first I was just subconsciously scratching at my wrists but then it became a more conscious act and I keep scratching and scratching and my wrists are all raw and torn open. I feel the need to get deeper, to cut deeper than I can by just using my fingernails. It wouldn't be difficult to find another tool that's more appropriate for my needs but I know that I shouldn't. I'm not supposed to.
I think about it every day. Don't know how to stop. I'm tired of fighting it.