I'm having trouble eating. Mostly restricting but sometimes trying to purge as well. I haven't the faintest what my diagnosis is but it's not an ED. I stopped eating eating because I was scared of being poisoned. But now the fear is decreasing but I'm counting calories and restricting and obsessing over my weight. Is this OK?
Last edited by tamobhuuta : 30-04-2017 at 05:59 PM.
When you follow a restricted diet for any reason there is an increased risk in developing ed-type thoughts and behaviours. Do you have any professional support you would feel comfortable enough discussing this with?
Because I've not been eating much they've been giving me these fresubin drinks. I've been thinking, maybe I should pour them away secretly, it would save a lot of calories and no one would have to know.
I hope this doesn't count as a food list, apologies if so.
Last edited by tamobhuuta : 02-06-2017 at 12:26 PM.
I think the staff are stalking me on this! The past couple of days they've been supervising me having the fresubins. They made me have an extra one this evening because I've been getting dizzy but I made myself sick straight after. I don't think this is a weight thing, I just need to control my food and my weight because I feel out of control with having to take meds.
Can you think of any healthier ways you could explore to help you feel in control? I sometimes find planning into my day say an hour or so where I choose what activity I do (reading, colouring, TV, whatever) for a length of time I choose and have it in my head that that is My Hour I and I alone am in Control of that hour, I could jump up and down and yell bananas if I felt so inclined (just random example :P) so long as it's not hurting myself or others.
Last edited by Buttons. : 05-06-2017 at 09:11 PM.
'Never forget what you are. The rest of the world will not. Wear it like armor, and it can never be used to hurt you.'
['There is only one thing we say to death. Not today'.']
'We are each our own devil, and we make this world our hell.’ – Oscar Wilde
‘It’s hard to dance with the devil on your back.’ Sydney Carter
Just chiming in to say I hear you and i empathize. I agree with the suggestions above about talking to your team because no one here knows the details of your situation to tell if something is right/wrong- good/bad, an ED or not.
I know that I made a point of having a full melt down in the ER and today about getting a diagnosis because I did not feel that I was being taken seriously. Would a diagnosis of an ED make you feel better?
Control is a big factor- but apart from feeling that you are doing battle with your mother and carers- you probably would benefit from additional support like counseling.
Are you in IP?
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You say toe- may- toe, I say toe- mah- toe:
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I think that it is important that you build trust in your care team. They are there to help you get better. I think you should let them.
Hugs.
~Happy tomatoes together we will be~
You say toe- may- toe, I say toe- mah- toe:
Let's call the whole thing- red
“It’s time to lead the third revolution, which is not to say we want to be at the top of the world, but to say we want to change the world. Because the way the world has been designed by men is not working. It’s not working for women, it’s not working for men,
it’s not working for polar bears.” Arianna Huffington 2014
If you aren't getting enough calories and taking proper care of your body then to be honest probably not. If you take in enough calories and take care of your body then probably yes.
'Never forget what you are. The rest of the world will not. Wear it like armor, and it can never be used to hurt you.'
['There is only one thing we say to death. Not today'.']
'We are each our own devil, and we make this world our hell.’ – Oscar Wilde
‘It’s hard to dance with the devil on your back.’ Sydney Carter
