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Tired of being lost
I'm posting this because I don't know where to turn to or where to go.
I am living in the middle of nowhere. I moved here for work, keep getting laid off and can't find work here anymore. I don't know anyone here, I have no family to count on, I am really screwed out here.
I have nowhere to go, it's like prison, all I do is sudoko, weights, computer games, shopping, beer runs, smoke cigarettes, walk in the countryside, listen to music or watch movies, play guitar, always alone, it's so boring. I hate having no buddies, no future.
I keep giving into the despair of the situation, I need to take responsibility of myself but companies keep letting me down. I applied for over 800 jobs from January to April, I could only get temp work for 3 weeks. I also had a job lined up but they let me down today.
I don't want to be comforted, I don't want to be told what to do, I want to develop a way out of this myself and maybe the reality is that I can't. It's pathetic, I need to get my life in order somehow, this isn't good enough, I won't tolerate myself like this.
My current plan is to get a job and move into another city where rents are affordable and public transport is better, make some friends and build an education. I don't know people there or anything, it's a long shot, I really don't know what else to do.
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